» Tue Jan 22, 2013 11:00 pm
Alistair Wright - Dining Hall - Athos
The smile Tara shot at Alistair made him become very wary. There was a plot in that head of hers. But it only turned out to be acknowledgement, then it struck his heart strings truly. It was indeed hard. Harder than expected, harder than ever before. Just as he opened his mouth to respond, Traven strode in. Alistair hid the distaste he felt for the theatrics deep down, though they had annoyed him greatly. Conversation resumed. Xane adding himself to the mix with his response.
Tara tried to explain herself and to the ace's amusemant, she tripped along her words in a comedy of missteps. He waved her down, " It's alright Tara. 'Tis of no matter. Being without her is indeed a trial but my mind is focused solely on this mission. I admit regretfully that my mind wanders to thoughts of my child and my wife but have no fear, this task comes first. I would also like to let you both know, you're safe from harm while I am with you. " The feelings that hit the pilot were odd, foreign. To open up to someone other than Clara, it was just so uncomfortable. But this was his team now and if the malevolent mist in the air had anything to say, they could be the people he died with.
A haggard-looking man burst in, providing a reprieve from any awkward mushiness. Alistair thanked the man in his head at the same time he cursed him for his tardiness. The others introduced themselves to him, the ace himself kept quiet. This man wasn't impressive. But he had allowed Alistair to snap back to his regular, calm self. He stared at the new pilot from his extraordinary white suit. More talking from Tara, boasting. More talking from Xane, friendliness. Then a question, about marriage? From Xane?
" Actually Alistair, I had a question. How is the married life? From what I've seen, it's pretty grand. Well, Lord Alan and Lady Illyana make it seem that way at any rate!" Xane said cheerfully.
The ace's mind drifted a little, he became reminiscent. " Xane, being married isn't as wondrous as the Lord and Lady make it seem. It is something that needs tempering. Some nights it'll be painful, others it is blissful. That period lasts for a long while. But once one passes that phase, it's peaceful. One has that love and companionship, on the lowest days when all one feels is dread, the other picks them up and makes everything well again. The love, all the goodness, only comes with the right person though. Otherwise it can just be turmoil. "
Alistair took a deep breath and looked the younger pilot in the eyes with a warm smile. " Do not rush these things Xane. Take your time, enjoy life. Find the woman you want to come home to everyday and talk about the same things with. If you truly do find her, she will make those same things different every time, she'll make them wonderful. " He turned serious for a moment. " Be warned though, if you still plan to be a soldier you will face heartache. Every time you leave her alone, she will worry over your health. You will yearn for her company. It will be painful. It takes great will to be both a soldier and someone's husband. At all times you must juggle duty and happiness. And when you are out there in the trench, worried sick for the well-being of the one you could not live without, know that you will have to live with that fact it was your choice. "
Suddenly the ace covered his face in shame. " I'm sorry Xane, I... carried myself away. Forgive my brash words. Only know that it is arduous, but can be the single best thing in your life. "
With a glance over, he saw Tara's shock. He apologized with his eyes and looked to the newcomer. " Greetings new blood. I hope you are worthy of the position you now hold. If you are only a fool like the last cretin, leaving would be wise. Lest you fancy a painful death. " Snapping words slithered out with a sharp, harsh British twist. Alistair had crawled back into the shell of arrogance and condescension to hide from his shame and his true feelings.