-Forgettance-She looked beautiful. The high-powered scope on my rifle offered me an excellent view of her bronze skin, chocolate hair, white smile. Her pink lips parted in a laugh, I could hear the faint sound of it echoing through the hills...my hills. It was a nervous laugh, a laugh to forget, to forget about the world falling apart around you. The bottle of whiskey in her left hand probably helped with that too.
Tears streamed out of her moss colored eyes, her chest heaved. She was trying very hard to forget, it must be hard when everything reminds you of the truth. The broken pavement of the parking lot her and her companion sat in was a testimony to the facts, the warped metal of the cars, and the skeleton remainders of their drivers still clutching the wheels did not allow fantasies. The world had ended.
Forgetting is easier with laughter. And alcohol.
I let her finish her laugh. I let her wipe the tears from her eyes, her face flushed with joy of not remembering. Her white smile was a little crooked as I pulled the trigger. Her eyes had been squinted, little crinkles surrounding them, but now they widened, still that lively shade of green. It was almost comical, the way her mouth formed a perfect “o”, and the way she stumbled and fell onto her ass. If not for the hole in her chest, if not for the blood trickling down her mouth, I might have laughed.
Her companion stood dumbfounded for a minute, his smile frozen and not knowing what it should do. I tried finishing him before he could grasp the situation, tried ending him with the joy still on his face. But I missed, my shot was too far left and instead it collided with the twisted metal of a car door. The resulting, ping! was enough to wipe the joy from his face and get him moving behind one of those burned out cars. I think he was crying. I think tears and snot streamed down his face.
He suddenly bolted from his cover, the smile that had been there moments ago had been placed by a sneer, one of determination. He knew if he could get outside of the parking lot, he was free, it would be too great of distance for me to shoot him accurately. And for the whole length of the parking lot their was cover, plenty of cars to hide behind, he would just need to zig-zag across the lot. But as he began his final sprint the memory of her weighed him down, he forgot how to forget and took a glance back to his fallen companion.
The steps faltered and my bullet pierced the middle of his back, he collapsed onto the pavement heavy with sweat, blood, and memories. I stood up, brushed the dust off my leather jacket, and descended into the parking lot. The man had flipped over and was clutching his stomach as blood seeped between his fingers, but his eyes were on me, they looked sad. The woman lay dead where she fell, blood trickling from her pink lips. She was pretty even in death, for now at least, I tried not imagine what she'd look like in three days.
“She was beautiful,” the man croaked.
“No,” I corrected, “She is beautiful. She learned how to forget, unlike you.”
He said nothing, breathed nothing, he was dead. Lines of remembrance still etched on his face, I did not want to die like him, but I couldn't forget. The woman could, that's why I killed her, she could but I couldn't, it wasn't fair.
“Teach me how to forget.”
My voice was soft and pleading, but she did not answer me. The blood continued to trickle from her mouth, pour from her back, and soak the pavement. Already the memories of her laughter started to haunt me, that nervous laughter that I wanted so badly. I couldn't forget, I couldn't laugh.
Only one option left,I reached for the whiskey.