Lately, I have been thinking a lot about random things.. our existence, its purpose, censorship, emotions, people and their reactions.. and then myself. And as I thought about myself, I slowly began to realize...

I am someone who has completely lost their faith in reality... Every time someone tries to communicate with me, I usually reply with a simple "Hmmph.." and ignore them. Sometimes, Ill feel like maybe im being a bit to cold, so I respond to the people sometimes... and usually, I get.

"Can I borrow a..."

or

"Did you know that so-and-so likes you?"


You know. Annoying stuff that a guy in middle school finds unnecessary. Every time I walk home, I feel anger toward the cars that drive by me. Why are they so noisy, and always on the street im trying to cross?

The fat people I have to walk around on the sidewalk. Why can't they just stop eating..

The planes that soar around me. Shut the hell up you annoying things..

My point is, everything that happens to me during the day seems to just.. annoy me. From people texting me whom for some reason I gave my number to a long time ago, to simply watching the actions of my retarded generation.

And yet.. at night, Ill close my eyes, and I dream about the world I created. A world that yes, has many conflicts, but not over things like oil and lazy people that want to be given things without doing a ounce of work to gain . Yes, this world has people.. but people with a personality, not just people that follow fads and giggle in a annoying voice. People that I can love... thats bad isn't it? I have more feelings for characters in my head then I do people I truly know..



Anyways, my point is, I seem to have lost all faith in the world we live in called Earth. The pollution, the population, all of its problems. Its just ridiculous the things we see on the news now... and no matter how many times I have tried, I just can't seem to find it back. Hell, Ill be sitting in my classroom sometimes wishing that aliens came crashing down, or a massive time-portal ripped open and dragged me away from everyone.. anything to escape this pathetic place.

Has anyone ever been like this, and if so, how did you get out of it?

I, too, felt teenage angst when I was younger in middle school.

Really, the only thing I can say is that instead of being hostile towards the things you encounter every day, you need to realize that everyone else is going through life, walking the same sidewalks, driving one the same streets, etc. trying to make it through their day. Maybe the person driving the car sees you and thinks, "Man, this crosswalk always has so many people on it and puts me 5 minutes behind schedule" or something. Maybe instead of ignoring the fat kid you have to walk around on the sidewalk, try talking to him. Maybe he's a big fan of videogames, the two of you have lots in common, and you become best of buds.

I'm also going to quote this:



For emphasis:



This is probably something you will grow out of. I'm no Dr. Phil but just my opinion.

Exactly. It's something almost all of us have felt at some point. But realize that you're not alone and it'll help you get through it.

No need to lose total faith in humanity/reality/life.

Barely even a teenager and you got teen angst

I'm amused

Heh. I am rebellious man! Anarchy! (doesnt even know the definition of the word... ((just kidding.)) )


Anyways, thanks for the response guys. I just needed some insurance that my brain hasn't gone to a mindset that it cant be saved from... I need to stop reading Alan Moore comics. They are very depressing O.o but so true.

When you are in your teens, your brain is literally being rewired as it grows. It's why you will feel disconnected from other people and find it difficult to read emotional cues. Most people grow out of that after a few years, but it's why teenagers are so angsty.

Also you have to deal with hormones. If you're female, in particular, that is something that doesn't end until you're post-menopausal. You have to deal with frequently being angry or sad for "no reason" - but have to behave normally at all times, which can be very stressful in itself.

The way I've always dealt with it is to listen to music. It has a way of making me feel connected in a way that nothing else can. In my teens I listened to a lot of Pink Floyd and industrial rock - stuff like NIN and Ministry - which I found very cathartic. When I got my first job, I used to get very bored and really hated it, so I listened to a lot of Nick Cave and Foetus - I'd be thinking, "Yeah, this svcks ... but at least I'm not him."

Nothing like Nick Cave's Weeping Song to cheer you right up.

I can answer your question as to why we exist. Same reason as every other animal cept with T.V.

I am have been like this for about 2 years now, and it simply wont stop. I feet where youre at, but the thing is that you dontt need to care about other (only people who cares about you). Your first priority to make shure that you feel good in you life, and dont care about anything else who you have no connection with.

That was my entire day yesterday, I wanted to punch every single person in the face I was so angry. I know for a fact today wont be any better thank god it's almost the weekend thou

I think that what you need is a little sense of accomplishment. I am a pretty angsty person; in fact, i find people with this attitude(or should i say, mindframe?..) extremely interesting and somehow, even attractive. If you're anything like me or my girlfriend, you probably really like a sense of security and comfort; maybe that's what you need? Maybe you like providing comfort for those who need it? I dunno, that's just what makes me happy. It took a while to realise that. Or, as i've already said, sense of accomplishment. The most fun things to do(for me, but i think everyone likes them) are learning new skills(but only if you like the results you get from using this skill, for example i like music so i've started teaching myself to play guitar and plan to buy bass) and, well, romance. The latter option is much more complicated than the former, though, and may not always bring positive feelings!

Greek: without Archons. :read:


Try not to feeel such contempt for other people. At the end of the day, most of them are as helpless to change things as you are, they're all just trying to get by.

http://xkcd.com/610/

You're just going through the whiny teenage angst stage. Most of us go through it. Hopefully it'll go away sooner or later.

You also sound anti-social, though, if you literally ignore most people. Anti-social is a common thing I suppose, but if you want to succeed in life then sooner or later you have to put away your angst and quit ignoring everyone. Do you ignore your teachers? Your friends? Your parents?

I was actually going to post that XKCD strip, but I thought better of it.

Yep youve got a case of teenage angst. Soon enough youll end up like this famous Australian teen:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SyMSC2zCPQo&feature=related

Youll grow out of it. Trust me. Even I went through a stage where i hated the world.

You've just described how I used to feel most days.

It's not just teen angst. It's more like existential angst. Teenagers are supposed to angst over mundane things like how their girlfriends broke up with them and stuff. This isn't mundane, and I kind of resent people saying it's normal. Nobody else I know seems to think about the same things I do, and instead they just get into hissy fits over the dumbest things.

It got to the point where I just needed to do something to keep my mind off it, so I started taking walks in places I've never been before; usually in the most confusing path possible. No sidewalks; grass or asphalt (but no actual roads; so mostly alleys and stuff). If I can see a car I haven't gone far enough.

Maybe you ought to do that, unless you live in a city. If you live in a city, you might end up lost for good trying to outrun the chaos; not a particularly healthy concept. I also decided to try my hand at meditation. It hit me that maybe I should let people fret about their petty problems and not think the less of them for it. I thought that there might be a possibility that they might actually be deep and mature people, just occupied with dumb things. And they have a right to that.

That's how I stopped feeling less like that. I'd probably find my own way if I were in your position, though.

I found as a teen, the best way to get over angst was to get over myself. The world doesn't revolve around one individual, as flattering as that would be. You need to broaden your horizons if you find your world so lacking.
People have to commute, they have jobs, school, homes to go to. This means cars, trains, planes, motorcycles, buses, bikes. Not all obese people overeat, many suffer from metabolic or endocrine disorders. If people enjoy your company, or find you romantically interesting, take it as a compliment. Be more judicous to whom your give your number. The thing about friends is that they share stuff, that includes material possessions, thoughts, emotional ups and downs.
People who only want to be around others whom they like because they never get asked for anything, or have to emotionally support someone, or find flaws with every single person, are IMO, just as big a time leech as frequent borrowers and whiners.
Go out and do something different, something fun, a change, get out of your rut.

Lose yourself in service to others. I dunno, try it.

I don't know... I'm 49 and still have teen angst. :meh:

Sounds like you need to sit down and think about your attitude and how to get over it. Emotions, hormone rages, realizing the world is not a rose garden, lust, responsibility, too old to play but too young to make independent decisions, noticing that your parents and other advlts are not perfect people but just people, bumps in the road, no straight road to where you want to go,...and more makes teen years especially difficult to bear. But putting a leash on anger and frustration and bad attitudes and learning ways of coping and even turning the energy spent on those things into something we enjoy (like playing music or sports or any healthy interest you have) will make you a bit happier person while you go through it all but will save you 20 million arguments you can not win with multiple authority figures including your parents and teachers. Try to skip the most harsh part by being kind despite your anger.

Btw, stop listening to anything Alan Moore has to say, he is an angry, bitter man.

Also btw, don't blame fat people for your whiny angst. I can't really have any sympathy for you at all if you honestly blame fat people for some of your troubles, also somewhat ridiculous since most people aren't fat enough to take up an entire sidewalk to begin with.

You're getting dangerously close to emo territory. Before you know it you'll be spiking your dyed-black hair and writing poems about emptiness.

I Grew out of it.

I also think the 3 above quotes are hilariously stupid.

But I still always ask my self why are we here?

Sure I am a religious person but for what purpose was earth made?

Questions I'll never get answers to :/

Getting annoyed and angry at stuff usually means it strikes a cord. There is something in you that you don't like, something that an external thing triggers, and you become angry to cover up the fact that it bothers you.

Rather than getting annoyed, seek understanding.

Why do you get annoyed at fat people? I used to be the fat kid, it's not just a matter of not eating, there's a lot of factors involved, biological, social, psychological.

I find that people who make harsh judgments about others are people who are uncomfortable with their own powerlessness. People who hate the world hate themselves for not being able to change it.

You said it in your OP:



You create this world not because you don't like this world, but because you don't UNDERSTAND this world.

You don't understand why people get overweight. You don't understand why people depend on their cars. You don't understand why people follow fads. You don't understand why people use other peoples' possessions more than their own. And the reason why you love imaginary people more than real people is because, well, part of love is understanding.

And step one of understanding others is understanding yourself.

Next time you get angry or annoyed at someone, ask yourself: why does this annoy me?