You always was addicted to smoking.
I'm going to have to agree with this. Even if it was mostly psychological vs. nicotine, it's still an addiction. But now you've finally been smoking long enough/enough per day to notice actual nicotine withdrawal.
You just need to realize that everyone who quit smoking enjoyed smoking - that excuse for continuing to smoke just aggravates me.
It's an excuse perhaps, but it's also true. I also like red meat too much and I don't plan on quitting eating it any time soon, colon cancer be damned. We all choose our risks - if you're aware of the risks and make the conscious decision that you're ok with that, then ... well, whatever. If you're not ok with that, for whatever reason, then you try to find a way to quit, like the OP is doing.
Me, I'm ok with it. I started smoking 25yrs ago and went through the usual long period of thinking I "should" quit. I tried and failed, tried and failed. Then one day I woke up and just went "meh, don't care." It's like Robin Williams said in a movie once - there's no try in smoking...you're either a smoker or a non-smoker, pick one and be that. I chose smoker and no longer castigate myself for not caring about quitting...I'm happy with my moderate level of the habit. Which oddly means I probably smoke a little less because of less mental stress. haha.
That all said ... I would
never encourage or recommend anyone ever pick up the habit. I may like smoking, but even beyond the health issues it does limit your life in strange little ways to be addicted to
anything. If you can stay away from it, do. If you truly want to quit, then do. I'd say the same for drinking or any other drug/addictive habit, as well. So to the OP...if the notion that you're "finally really addicted" to smoking is really bothering you, you should quit. Even if you still enjoy it. Be a complete non-smoker again for 5-10 years and see how that feels. If you still truly miss it, you can always go back. And that's what's so insidious about addiction.