Hard pavement beneath me.
Wrists tied, rope gnawing into my skin, into the veins.
I'm crying.
On my stomach, chin raised high so the gravel doesn't cut into it. Pants scuffed, shirt torn. Hot, burning exhaust coming from the car before me. Nasty fumes breathing against my face. I blink my eyes and notice the long rope coiled from my wrists, tied to the bumper. That's when I realize where I am. In the middle of the road, no one in either direction for miles. Around me, barren landscape for ever and ever. A bird caws in the distance. I turn my head and rest my cheek on my arm. The bright sun burns with hot fury.
A foot hits the ground inches before my face. I follow up the boot, the pantleg, the jacket. The face is shaded and unintelligble, masked behind the light of the sun. But I already know who it is. "I took your stuff," he says. "I hope you don't mind."
I'm only wearing my thin undershirt and pants. He took my boots, my jacket, my gun. I would have done the same thing if I had gotten the better of him. Can't blame him. His boots kick up dust in my face. I cringe and spit. He does it again. I bury my face into the ground. I hear him walk away, open the car door, step in. I jerk my head up and pull at the ropes. They cut deep into my flesh. It's no use.
The car nudges forward and my belly skids across the ground. My shirt erodes a little bit. He presses the gas. I can imagine him sitting in the car, watching the needle quiver at three miles per hour. Even at the slow speed my entire body burns. My knees are on fire, my chin is split, my stomach is white-hot. He presses a little more and I cry out.
"No point in screaming," he calls out the window. "No one around here. I'm not even up to ten yet."
I lift my chin off the ground and he steps on the gas. We jerk forwards, twenty miles per hour. My arms nearly break out of socket; the rope becomes taut. I feel the rough stone sanding down my denim pants, feel my stomach hurt in ways I can't imagine. He twists the wheel and slings me into the sand, speeding as he does it.
The sand burns down the skin in my knee. I scream like I've never screamed before, begging him to stop.
That's when he goes through the cacti patch.
I don't even know what hurts the worst. I don't know how fast we're going. I'm sliding along, leaving a trail of agony behind me. I'm bleeding everywhere. All I know, all I've ever known is pain. The sand cuts away all the skin and saws down into the bone.
And then suddenly he turns and puts on the emergency break. Inertia slings me across the ground at an angle and that's when I see the gigantic chasm in the earth. I feel all the ground beneath me disappear and be replaced by the sickly feeling of falling. I drop for eons. The ground gets closer, bigger. Then the rope catches my fall and I hear a loud pop somewhere in my arm. I slam into the side of the cliff, smashing my nose.
I look up into the sun.
Light everywhere.
A shining orb.
The white heat. My arms are broken by the fall. My wrists are cut so deep, valleys of red tendons and bones. My nose is broken and three teeth are MIA. My knees and stomach don't even exist.
I stare into the great abyss above until a great figure blocks the sun.
"Hmm. Are you dead?"
I blink blood out of my eyes. "No. Please let me go. I'm sorry."
"Sorry, huh? Were you sorry when you sneaked up on me and tried to kill me? Tried to loot my stuff?"
"It's tough out there. You know it. I know it. It was nothing personal." I feel myself pleading, cold, pitiful words leaving a bad taste in my mouth.
"Well, this isn't personal either. I understand not much is left. I know how hard it is to find shelter. It's hard to find food. I'm still running from The Cititzenship. But I would never, never, ever try to hurt someone who didn't deserve it, just to make life easier for myself."
I already know what he's going to do.
He opens up the trunk of the car and pulls out a knife.
"Oh no. Please, no."
He's going to cut the rope.
"Now wait a minute. This isn't what you think it is."
"It's not?" I bark. My voice is hoarse.
"I'm one of those people who believe in second chances."
"Thank you," I murmur.
He yanks up the rope a little at a time. The pain in my arms is unbelievable. He hauls me up over the edge of the canyon and sets me down on the dirt. He kneels down with the knife and cuts one of my hands free. It's cut wide open. I can't move my fingers, my hand, my lower arm.
"Here you go," he says, and places the knife by the handle in my hands. He squeezes my fingers into a grip around the blade.
"In ten seconds I'm going to get into this car and drive off," he explains. "I'm going to go a lot faster than I was before. Now, you have that much time to use the knife to cut the rope. Do you think you can do that?"
I can't. I can barely move.
"Yes," I answer, "then what?"
"That's it. Judging by your stomach, you have an hour until you bleed out and die. You won't have any of your stuff back. I won't come back for you. You'll be left for dead in this desert. But, that gives you a chance. There's a town about a mile or so from here."
"Please."
"What?"
"Please let me go."
"I am. As long as you cut that rope before I do any more damage. You have your second chance. I'm going to get in the car and count to ten. Then I take off."
He turns and and begins to walk back to the car.
This is my chance. He might have a medical kit in the trunk. All I have to do is--
I muster up all the strength I can. I raise up my arm and cry out from the pain. The knife is tight in my hand. I hurl it at him with all the force I have. The blade sails through the air, spinning, light glinting off it's silver edge. It buries itself into his shin.
The man cries out and yells and spits and curses. He jumps back and stumbles onto his rear, flailing. He grabs the knife and tears it from his leg. He throws it against the ground and stands up in anger.
I had failed.
"What is wrong with you? I'm a nice guy. I gave you a chance!" he screams.
I feel no shame. Only fear.
He stands in silence. I look up at him.
Suddenly, he steps into the car and closes the door. The engine starts. With my free hand, I tug at the ropes. They are far too tight. And then the tires screech and kick up the stones and dust into my face. The car lunges forward with fierce speed. All the pain intensifies. Everything goes black.
Get to Manchester. Shelter. No Citizenship. Family.
For a split second I pass out and then all the color floods into my eyes. I don't feel anymore pain, I'm going into shock. I've probably already lost too much blood.
I hear something else. Over the roar of the car I hear another vehicle getting closer. Riding alongside it. I see a man lean out of the window, hear the loud crack of a rifle. The bullet breaks the rope I'm tied to, separating me from the car. I slow, but he continues on. I spin. I grind to a halt. I hear another report from the rifle and see the man who had strung me up fall from his car. He doesn't get back up.
I pass out again.
"Boy, what did you do to have him that upset?" a voice asks from the darkness.
"Mmm," I mumble.
"Steal from him?"
"Yeah."
"No shame, my friend. Tough times, eh? I'll get ya cleaned up, but if you steal from me, let me make it clear: I won't hesitate. You mean nothing to me."
"The feeling is mutual," I whisper before slipping unconscious.
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