I'm the Arch-mage. The Eye of Magnus (and I never really figured out what that... was) threatened to destroy a city, and even the world. But I scoured the length and breadth of Skyrim to find the one item that could temper its power. Through the immense magical showdown between two powerful, ancient artifacts, the threat was abated.
I'm fought for the Empire and stamped out the rebellion as General Tullius' champion. Victory, stability, and peace have been achieved.
I've battled dragons all over Skyrim and traveled to Sovngarde itself to defeat Alduin, the Mighty World Eater. Through this, I have saved time, space, and this world itself.
And ya know what? After all this I look around and can't escape the feeling that I really have nothing to show for any of it. I still feel like I need to get out there an accomplish something in Skyrim, but the sad fact is that I've accomplished the majority of the things that I wanted to do. Specifically:
- As the archmage, there's hardly anything for me to do. In fact, there's hardly anything at the college at all. There's a library there, but that's it. Where do the classes take place? Why can't I take part in anything that goes on there? Even if you do the radiant quests, the people giving them to you don't behave as though you are the arch mage at all, instead acting like you are still that new recruit looking to find a little way to help out here and there. So I saved a city, was somehow selected by the ancient Psijic Order (for whatever reason?) to help reign in a terrible and powerful magic relic... and nothing really comes of that? I have a bedroom which constitutes one half of the main building of the entire college, and the leftover staff from the previous quest. That's it?
I suppose in reality, this one's not so terrible. I do at least get the bedroom and there's some cool stuff in there. Still, though, the College feels completely lifeless.
- After having fought in the civil war, I've basically facilitated the conquest of Skyrim. I went across the nation, fighting battle after battle, coming home victorious every time. I lead the final charge, and was with the general when the enemy leader fell. Now, after having finally quashed the rebellion, my duties complete, I'm left with nothing but a sword. It's a nice sword, but... is that it? No new title, no castle anywhere? No duties in this great new city we just conquered? Not even a bunk somewhere, or.. anything? It's almost as if I've been fired. There's literally no trace of anything I've done with the Legion this whole time, save the sword. Which, now that it's in my basemant... is hardly a reminder at all. I don't even remember which one it was, frankly.
- Lastly, and worst among them all, is the main quest. I've freaking killed or banished the World Eater. I've slain the mightiest dragon history has ever known. I did it all while alive and mortal in the immortal realm of the dead. And when I get home...
Nothing. Not a word from anyone. My friend and "mentor" Esbern and his sissy blade friend hate me, because I won't slaughter my only real friend and actual mentor, Parthurnaax. Speaking of whom, the olde dragon has a few words to say about how he'll miss his brother that I just banished to Oblivion, then he and his friends fly off. And for me? I'm just left standing there in the snow. The only human being in Skyrim that even seems to realize that I've done anything at all is Argenir, the old Greybeard. Even he doesn't come find me or say anything. I have to go seek him out, and then he offers me a little thank you before giving me the "business as usual" dialogue. I mean... I'm totally and completely deflated by all this.
What I'm left with, in the end, is essentially nothing. I've completed half the major questlines in the game and I have nothing to show for it. Nobody in Skyrim recognizes me, nobody cares what I've done, and I haven't gained any symbol or lasting impact anywhere at all. I've changed history and literally left no mark on it whatsoever.
How in the world can this be? Am I just blindly missing the subtle and wonderful things that are taking place around me, or is it that I really am just standing out in the cold of Skyrim, a nobody?