Maybe its the liquor talking or maybe, as I face the end of the world Ive finally become a thinking man, but I'm feeling compelled to write down my last few thoughts for no particular reason. Its not as if anyone's gonna read this [censored], but hey not like I've got anything better to do. After Jenny left with my last dollar, the car, and my pride and joy Jack not much else mattered and that's when this drinking habit of mine got really bad. Although it ain't all bad least I'm not being forced into one of those vaults. I swear Vault-Tec is a bunch crooks and creeps, I wouldn’t trust a single product they make, and most certainly would not trust them to protect me from a nuclear holocaust. So Ill just sit right here and watch the bombs fall.
Now I know I should be feeling scared or desperate or maybe even crazy like so many of the people out there, but I’m simply in awe. Of awe of humanity as a whole, how everything we’ve created in our few thousand years of recorded existence can go up in flames in less than a day. In one day we will see everything we once thought important destroyed and turn to dust. In one day the whole of us will become equal again, money, status, race, religion, none of it will matter, these things created by humanity to ease our few years on this earth will become irrelevant as the world returns to a time before humanity.
Some people are seeking solace in the fact that they will go to their almighty reward after their eventual demise, but isn’t religion a man-made device? Something created during our time here in an effort to explain why we’re on this earth, created to quench the human need to make sense of it all. What makes humanity so special above our ability to reason and to think? I think we’re just at the end of our time nothing more, nothing less. All those pressing issues in our lives seem like petty squabbles now on the big picture of it all.
We were all just animals looking for a way to make our trip through life just a little bit more pleasant. I see all these people trying to make sense of it but I’m not looking for very many answers, just one, What was the point of it all? The point of the wars, the point of our existence, the reasoning behind some of the more horrific times in human history, why did we have social classes, why was one man above another? None of it makes sense to me, most people are saying that the end of the world, that this Apocalypse, doesn’t make any sense, but to me it’s the only thing that truly does.
Rough copy, written in only a few minutes, didn’t have time to include the homey dialect throughout will add if I have time.