Blame it on the Alpha build.
Hahaha! Nice.
7 Stages of Grief...
1. SHOCK & DENIAL-
You will probably react to learning that Skyrim svcks with numbed disbelief. You may deny the reality of this truth at some level, in order to avoid the pain. Shock provides emotional protection from being overwhelmed all at once. This may last for weeks.
2. PAIN & GUILT-
As the shock spell wears off, it is replaced with the suffering of unbelievable pain. Although excruciating and almost unbearable, it is important that you experience the pain fully, allowing it to flow through you like Porpheric Hemophilia, and not hide it, avoid it or escape from it with alcohol, drugs or Skooma.
You may have guilty feelings or remorse over purchasing the Collectors Edition of Skyrim instead of spending that money on Battlefield 3, but think of how amazing that statue of Alduin will look on your mantle. Life feels chaotic and scary during this phase, but you've visited the Shivering Isles before, so this feeling should be nothing new to you. Resist the urge to test if your statue of Alduin really can fly.
3. ANGER & BARGAINING-
Frustration gives way to anger, and you may lash out on the forums and lay unwarranted blame for the death of TES on someone else whose opinion differs from yours. Please try to control this, as permanent damage to your future TES relationships may result. This is a time for the release of bottled up emotion. Try shouts.
You may rail against fate, questioning "Why me?" You may also try to bargain in vain with the Daedric powers that be for a way out of your despair ("I will never complain again if you just bring spears back!")
4. "DEPRESSION", REFLECTION, LONELINESS-
Just when your friends may think you should be getting a PC to use mods to "fix" Skyrim, a long period of sad reflection will likely overtake you. This is a normal stage of grief, so do not be "talked into buying a new PC" by well-meaning outsiders just to play Skyrim. Encouragement from others is not helpful to you during this stage of grieving.
During this time, you finally realize the true magnitude of your loss, and it depresses you. You may isolate yourself on purpose, reflect on how next-gen consoles will make everything better and focus on memories of Morrowind and Daggerfall. If you find yourself reflecting on Cyrodiil again, you may sense feelings of emptiness or despair. Try not to worry. Skyrim is just as empty and disparaging as Cyrodiil, but feels even more depressing due to all the mountains.
5. THE UPWARD TURN-
As you start to adjust to life without your dear Skyrim, your life becomes a little calmer and more organized. Your physical symptoms lessen, your thumbs and trigger fingers cease their twitching, and your "depression" begins to lift slightly.
6. RECONSTRUCTION & WORKING THROUGH-
As you become more functional, your mind starts working again, and you will find yourself seeking realistic solutions to Skyrim's problems by going back to the forums. You will start to work on practical and financial problems and reconstructing yourself and your gaming PC.
7. ACCEPTANCE & HOPE-
During this, the last of the seven stages in this grief model, you learn to accept and deal with the realism of your situation. Acceptance does not necessarily mean instant happiness. Given the pain and turmoil you have experienced, you can never return to the carefree, untroubled Skyrim that existed before this tragedy. But with PC patches and mods, you will find a way forward.
You will start to look forward to downloads from TES Nexus and actually plan things for the future. Eventually, you will be able to think about the vanilla version of Skyrim without pain; sadness, yes, but the wrenching pain will be gone. After about 5 or 6 years you will once again anticipate some good TES games to come, and yes, even find joy again in the experience of immersing yourself in their worlds.