AN: Annnnd here it is! Took long enough. This chapter's too long for (most) readers in these forums, I know, but it is what it is.
Chapter XIX
A long time later he roused himself, still sniffling and sobbing, the salt of his tears drying in the grooves of his cheeks. He scrambled awkwardly to his feet, holding himself up on the narrow passage’s unseen wall, and stumbled forward, not knowing where he was going, not caring, just moving through the unseen maze flogging himself with the angry whispers of his ancestors. He guided himself with his hands on the walls, but still he stumbled into the rock, cut himself on slivers of unseen stone, bruised his head on corners and overhangs, and he welcomed each injury as no more than he deserved. His hands the mummified corpses of the Zainab as he made his awkward way back up through the wraithways, and each time the forum hissing in his mind spiked in vitriolic offense, and each time he snarled at himself for his daring and murmured fervent, disjointed apologies.
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m a disgrace, I’m worthless! I’m sorry,” he cried, and stumbled on into the blackness accompanied only by the censorious whispers of the spirits and his own choked apologies. Ever forward into the darkness he went, seeking the tomb’s egress that he might preserve at least his life, if not his dignity or his dreams. Ever forward, and never progressing; though he fumbled and stumbled his way unceasingly through the narrow passages, he could not find the way out. The dark pressed in on his frenzied mind, and his scrabbling scramble grew ever quicker and more frantic. A stone caught his foot somewhere in that timeless dark, and he sprawled forward on his belly, cheek grinding against the cold slate. The shock of it jolted his thoughts out of their panicked haze.
“Forgive me,” he whispered into the stone. And, “Forgive me,” more loudly, pushing up his quivering body. The ancestors buzzed angrily, unmoved. “I am a poor, ignorant fool,” Maissel’s lips twitched out. “I know nothing. I blasphemed your sepulcher, but I did not do so out of disrespect. Forgive me.” Still there was no change. The chandler sat there in the dark; silent, waiting, repentant. And then, suddenly, something hard and angry welled up in him, and his snapped backward.
“FORGIVE ME!!!”
His scream tore and scraqed through his throat like razors. Its echoes rang through the wraithways, taunting, mocking his breathless, hopeless desperation. But the ancestors made no reply, and in cold clarity, reality dawned in his mind. They would not forgive him his transgression. They would not even allow it to go unpunished. No; instead they meant to keep him there, in their tomb, forever. He was sentenced to death by his own progenitors; death by swift madness and slow starvation.
He trembled as the realization hit him, and this time his quavers were fueled by fury, not fear and dismay. His own ancestors meant to kill him for falling into the habits he had followed for nearly two centuries, for resorting to the faith that had sustained him for his entire life and of which he had never yet been shown the wrong. He had had no Wise Woman to teach him their ways, only the pious words of his devout mother and the village priest. And yet they punished him! He had been among the Zainab mere days, and yet they expected him to be faultless! They did not damn him for his blasphemy, the fools; they damned him for not having been raised to their ways, just like Shabael and the rest of his tribe.
The chandler snarled to himself as he got to his feet once more and began stalking aimlessly through the black passageways. And why should he renounce the Tribunal, anyway? They had served the Dunmer people well, over the years, had bolstered his own heart and mind countless times. He should abandon that because his forefathers and foremothers had different beliefs? He should abandon his faith when the faith of his ancestors had never even been shared with him?
“I won’t do it!” he shouted suddenly to the whispers. “Not until you show me the reason why!” There was no answer, save a noxious spike in the deluge of ethereal audio, and Maissel kicked the stone wall in his fury.
“Damn it, do you not see?” he roared. “Repent I will for having called on the Triunes in your presence, and repent I have; you have witnessed my penitence! Is that not enough?! Do you not see that you condemn me for nothing more than not having had the benefit of your true Velothi instruction?” He panted in the silence; blood pounded tightly in his clenched fists. “As
you should see it, you condemn a misguided child for having erred! Is there no one among you who sees the folly, the injustice of this? Is there no one who will speak for me?!”
The voices surged suddenly, fracturing, turning in among themselves angrily, confusedly, uncertainly. Maissel’s eyes stretched wide, attempting futilely to penetrate the dark. His mind rattled with a thousand, a hundred thousand competing voices. An ache began to pulse in his temples.
And then a cool whisper rose above the wraithly hubbub, cold and ephemereal.
“
…desissst, you racer broodlingsss…” it sighed. “
…an advocate is sssought…trial…is sought. As his sin… is mine… I will test his heart. I claim the Wailing Well… desissst…” And as that single voice’s hiss faded into silence, so too did the others subside. For the first time since he had entered the burial, it was silence that pressed in on his spiritual ears, not sound. His skin prickled with it, with a sudden apprehension; his fury vanished with the voices. What had he done? What transnecrotic ritual had he invoked? The silence was strangely oppressive, after so long; it chilled his blood with its stillness. But what was he to do?
Why had they gone silent?
“
…come…” The voice echoed through the passageways borne on the faintest shadow of a breath. His skin tingled; his hands grew cold. And he realized that he could see once more; a faint glimmer of the earlier greenish glow illumined the narrow passage before him. The implications of that fact did not sink in immediately. But when they did, it was as though he had been infused with a fluorescent tincture of fluid hope.
He was seeing through the eyes of the ancestors once more. He was no longer unequivocally condemned. He did not know what – or who – he had called into action, or what he would be asked to do… but he knew that he would make the most of it. He shot into motion, hurrying up through the passages as fast as the dim light and his wobbly legs would allow. The voice had said ‘come’, so come he would. To where, his mind knew not… but his heart was better informed, for he strode forward without hesitation. Water splashed around his ankles, shocking and icy; he had stumbled at last out of the jagged wraithways and back to the bottom of the slanted main cavern. A cold light burned on the slope above, a pale washed out blue shining out from the stalactite hanging above the pillar in the room’s level center; the stone fang’s fractured, crystalline shell glimmered whitely against the darkness. Mist bubbled and frothed from the obsidian pillar’s basin, hovering and curling across the stone floor, bathing the nearby ancestors in cold steam.
“
Come,” the ethereal voice echoed again, and this time there was no mistaking its source; it came from the pillar in the center of the room. “
Come…” And Maissel went.
The mist chilled his shins and thighs as climbed, but not in the same life-sapping way that those of the haunting spirit had done; this was simply the chill of otherness, not maleficence. It grew more acute the closer he came to the glassy black pillar and its glowing stalactite; his legs went numb with it. His boots clattered on the suddenly level stone beneath the mist as he gained the pillar’s platform. His broad hands shook as he laid them on the stone’s faceted edge and peered down into the seemingly empty basin. There was no response, despite the pale light that suffused his face from the stalactite above.
He bent forward, slowly, nervously, and spoke to the invisible waters.
“I am here –“
“
HERE YOU ARE.” The singular voice cut him off immediately. He jumped back in surprise; three drops had tinkled down without warning from the stone tooth above, nearly touching his face. They struck the crystalline water, and the spirit’s words sounded instead of a natural splash. They reverberated through the chamber for as long as the ripples stirred in the basin.
“
You have… offended the spirit of the Zainab,” the spirit spoke after a long pause. Water dribbled into the basin.
“That was never my intent,” stuttered Maissel, laying his palms gingerly once more on the obsidian pillar and gazing down into its shallow pool. “I have only ever intended honor to my ancestors. That my words were spoken on the cusp of death is no valid excuse, but that I was not raised to your ways
is valid, with all respect, honored ancestor.”
Another long pause before the next droplets of water flashed through the air.
“
It is excuse… enough,” rang the voice. “
At least, enough to earn… a chance at redemption.” The chandler swallowed convulsively as the words echoed through the chamber. “Redemption is all I wish,” he choked. “But, honored spirit… I will not revoke my reverence for Almsivi without due cause.”
“
The honor… of your better ancestors… is no cause?” Around him, the mist swirled suddenly.
“I have been taught that the Tribunal, too, are my better ancestors,” whispered Maissel. “Can you prove their unworthiness?”
The chamber was silent for a long moment. Then the ripples spread once more through the crystal liquid.
“
We cannot prove… the treachery… of the Three,” the voice sighed. “
For the Velothi were… left to guard the entrance… to the Dwemer hold, that day. None saw… what befell Nerevar… beneath Red Mountain.” “
So as I speak for the Zainab… we are prepared… to overlook your dissension,” the waters hissed. “
So long as you do not present it before ussss, again… and raise your children… to our waysss…” “I swear it,” he answered softly. A tendril of mist swung softly up, stroked down his cheek. He shivered.
“
Accepted,” intoned the spirit representative. “
Accepted. We will forgive your… blasphemy. Yet still… the Zainab demand atonement.” Maissel clenched his jaw firmly; his hands gripped the stone convulsively. “I am ready,” he said firmly. His heart pounded in his ears.
The spirit did not answer immediately; the waters remained flat and invisible. The mist roiled in front of him, dancing with snatches of shapes and figures.
“
You came here… to correct an ancient sin,” whispered the voice when it came at last. “
You came to… serve the Zainab.” Maissel frowned. “I came here to prove my worthiness to our people,” he objected, but the spirit ignored him.
“
Complete this ssservice… as only you can… and your sins will be erased.” “What is this service, then?” he asked.
The stalactite dribbled sibilant sighs. “
You have met… the Wrathful Cuckold. Know his… names… the names we have kept… from our Wise Women… so long. He is – is… one half your father… one fourth your grandfather…” “Kaushad?” gasped Maissel.
The mist writhed, shedding tiny strips and drifting tendrils. “
Wrong… half,” the voice rang as water sparkled through the air. “
Kaushad was maker of cuckolds… never cuckold himself. No… we are haunted by your other father… by Aravel Sarethi.” He could not speak. His chest felt wrapped in bands of ice. The voice went on, slow and uninflected. Soft strands of mist caressed his cheeks in a parody of comfort.
“
He bore all his life… the pain of a loveless wife and… another mer’s son. Now his spirit is… unwilling… to allow Kaushad the warmth of… your mother’s spirit… the warmth he never had in life… his anger and pain… have drawn another to his purpose… in sympathy… Uroshnor…” His throat unstuck. “My grandfather was cuckolded?” he grated harshly.
“
… … … yes… “ whispered the voice reluctantly. “
His spirit is… more magnanimous in his disgrace… than Aravel’s… he did not punish usss… until your half-father came… their situations are too similar… Uroshnor is bound now in shared archetype… by Aravel’s anguish… and with the Ashkhan’s strength… the haunting is too powerful for usss to dispel...” Maissel stared down at the smoothing water. He could not believe what he was hearing.
“But – but Uroshnor spoke to me,” he stammered. “He told me to come here.”
“
His binds… are not absolute,” the voice answered. “
For strong calls… for perilous purpose… he may break free… but only you may free him… and ease Aravel Sarethi’s long pain…” “Why?” he rasped. “Why me?”
The mists smoothed, soft and diffuse, and the spirit answered.
“
Because…” it whispered, “
you are the only fat-smith.” He shook his head roughly. “Maela’s mother thought I would know this sort of thing as well. But I do not. Whatever your ancient fat-smiths knew is long lost.”
“Not lossst,” echoed the spirit, and suddenly the mist contorted in the air on the other side of the basin. “
Not lost,” it repeated, “
for I remain. I… will teach you what you need… for I was the last fat-smith of the Zainab.” And the mists parted, and a pale grey figure was there, part of the mist, and yet beyond it. A womer, in bulky skirts, her face obscured. She drifted sideways toward him, circling around her vocal instrument.
“
You have… an ancient secret of my craft…” she said, and her voice still came with the dripping water. “
The Jelly… that was lost to the settled people… and whose warmth… eases all woes… fulfills all wants…” Her form slid toward him, and then broke over his flesh without pause, like the mist of which she was composed, only to reform without pause at his other side.
“The Royal Jelly?” said Maissel, hurriedly rummaging in his pack and extracting the dark, waxed orb. “The Jelly can appease my father’s spirit?” he asked, watching the ghost as it continued its circling drift.
“
Not… as it is…” she answered. “
Your father’s discontent… is rooted in dissatisfaction. He prevents Kaushad from enjoying in death that which he… never did in life… the spiritual warmth of your mother.” The ghostly figure raised a drifting arm. “
To lay your half-father to rest… let him experience… just once… that which he desiresss… use the Jelly…” “How?” gasped the chandler in frustration. “I don’t understand!”
“
Go to your mother…” the swirling figure replied, “
gather the fat… of her briast. Add a new layer… to the Jelly. Then… Aravel may taste of contentment… and will ease down, to his rest… and release Uroshnor at last…” There was a long moment of silence as Maissel digested the spirit’s words. His father – Aravel – had been haunting the Zainab tomb for nearly one hundred and fifty years. His grandfather had too, in a sense. His mother had never loved Aravel, it seemed, but only Kaushad, though how the two had even met he could not fathom. And he had to melt down the preserved fat of her briasts as a new layer upon the Royal Jelly he had found. He could barely wrap his mind around it. The spirit watched him, swirling in silence.
“I understand, honored fat-smith,” he managed at last. “But I do not understand. I do not know where my mother rests.”
“
You know,” sighed the wraith. “
She held the Jelly… awaiting your arrival… so many cold years…” He stared down at the dark orb in his hand. The Jelly. She held the Jelly… the corpse. The corpse where he had found it… that was his mother. Ghanimah. She had been in the tomb of the Zainab, all those years… exactly where she would have wanted to be, he realized. For she loved Kaushad, if the fat-smith’s spirit was correct. But no, that wasn’t quite right. She
wasn’t exactly where she would have wanted to be. She braved the terrors of battle with the Ahemmusa because she saw Kaushad – his father. She wouldn’t have wanted to rest in this tomb, alone and spiritually isolated by Aravel’s pained vengeance; she would have wanted to rest in the arms of her lover. He felt it, with a certainty that resonated in his bones.
“
Go…” whispered the spirit.
And he went. Off, down the misted stone slope, stumbling in his haste as he stuffed the waxed Jelly back in his pack, splashing through the icy water and into the jagged maze. He dashed with swift surety through the narrow passageways under the deathly, watchful eyes of his mummified ancestors, his steps coming with unshakeable faith that the spirits would guide him to his destination. And so they did; there was the low, separated alcove, with its domed ceiling and single occupant; his mother, poor Ghanimah, her ancient emaciated, bandaged body hunched, grey, and pathetic on the stones. His heart ached for her. So long imprisoned by her husband’s spirit; so long alone. But then something stirred in the air before her, and he realized that she was
not alone, and had not been alone. The haunting spirit was with her. His father was with her.
“
Ghanimah Ghanimah sweet sweet girl. Why so cold so proper so unfurled…” The words seeped softly out from the dark, billowing figure between Maissel and his mother. “
Never warm for ME. Never conceived for ME. What did you want? Was it… the lizard kiss? Would that have warmed your womb enough to bear a babe? But… what is it? What was it? This kiss, this reptile, this strangeness… I – I seem to remember – didn’t I? – but, no, that
was the other…
oh, Ghanimah, Ghanimah, so unfortunately named…” The words subsided into unintelligible murmurs. Maissel took a single, careful step into the alcove.
The spirit spun around, form suddenly whirling in the bitter whipping wind that bit at the chandler’s flesh without warning.
“
BETRAYERBACKGONOAPPEASENO!” Its face contorted horribly, and its arms raised in menace, but Maissel stepped stoutly forward.
“Let me by!” he shouted. “I am Maissel Sarethi, grandson of Uroshnor, son of Kaushad, foster of Aravel, son of Ghanimah! I have the right here! Let me by!”
The ghost started, its unearthly winds fading slightly. “
BOLDFOSTERadvltERERSONSOBOLD!” it cried.
“FATSMITHAPOLOGIESPROFESS?” Its wispy outline flickered in the slowing air.
“I bear no apologies for you, father,” grated Maissel loudly, steeling himself. “I have done you no wrongs. But I come to ease your pains, and those of my grandfather, Uroshnor.” He stepped gingerly forward, his boot breaking the low crust of mist.
“
RESTSLEEPHEAL?” howled the spirit wonderingly. The timbre of its voice shifted slightly, to a deeper, richer register. But then, “
APPEASENOAPPEASENEVERBEGONE!” it screamed, and its form dissolved as the air went abruptly icy and erupted in a tempestuous whirlwind.
Maissel abandoned caution, running straight into the spirit’s bitter fury, into the swirling winds and cutting howls. His skin tingled and his bones ached; all was a confused mess of motion and pale light, but he managed to find his mother’s corpse in the center of the maelstrom. He knelt down beside her, face contorted in pain, and fumbled with frozen fingers at his belt for the two knives Derch had given him.
“
BLASPHEMVIOLATincistOR!” his father’s maddened spirit screeched by his ear, and for a moment his flesh ached with that same sapping cold that had nearly killed him before. But it lessened abruptly, and the voice roared again, deep and agonized.
“
HOLDPAINCUCKOLDSON,” it bellowed. “
FATSMITHSOOTHESFATSMITHHELPSHOLD!” He had the long serrated knives in his broad hands, poised and shaking above his mother’s bandaged corpse. The winds ripped around him, howling like winter’s heart, tearing at his thin grey hair and echoing with the struggling roars and skirls of his father and grandfather, but they did not sap, they did not kill. The strength of Uroshnor had come through for his people one last time.
Maissel’s hands trembled as he gently laid his mother’s corpse out flat on the stone, straightening the long-bent elbows and knees to expose the sunken chest. He stared down where her eyes had once been beneath the grey cloth, down at her featureless face, and he whispered a prayer to her silent spirit, a prayer that was devoured by the howling winds, as the knives tremored in his hands. Then the blades plunged down, through the ancient fabric over the corpse’s sternum; his work was begun, and his hands were as steady as stone. He ripped the ash-grey cloth up the center of the chest and parted it gently with the tips of his serrated blades, exposing the wasted but incredibly preserved black flesh below. His knife bit into his mother’s waxy skin, incising a neat slice across her chest. Then the blades slid beneath the skin, peeling it back from the ribs and from the yellowish nodules of cured fat lobes. And, working calmly, smoothly, certain as if he worked on the flesh of a guar, ignorant of the tempest struggling around him, Maissel carved away the fat of his mother’s briasts.
He pushed himself to his feet when he had done, when the yellowish, waxy lumps had been carefully stowed away, and sheathed his blades hurriedly. He gave his mother one final prayer of thanks, then backed away out of the alcove. The haunting spirit ignored him, still writhing and struggling with itself, whirling above his mother and her gaping burial bandages. But as he left, the spirit began to coalesce once more, Aravel’s voice predominating, confused and panicked; Uroshnor’s interference had reached its limit.
“
WHATDONEWHOTOOKPROFANER!” it screamed at him, its grey figure bunching and contorting with its boundless fury and desperation. “
FAILFAILFAILFAILFAILFAILFAIL!” it roared, and leaped toward him, a steaming stream of smoke. He threw up his hands, in futility, but the spirit flashed past him harmlessly. “
SHESHALLNOTSUCCORFAITHLESSphalus!” its howling voice echoed as it vanished into the maze of jagged passages. “
FINALRECOURSEFEARBUTYOUWILLFAILFATSMITHFINALRECOURSE!!!! None shall succor siiiiiiiin…” The scream faded into silence.
Maissel stared after it for a long moment, his heart thudding loudly in his ears. For a moment there he had thought all had been for naught. But no; Aravel merely returned to his ancient duty, to warding against all communication between Ghanimah and Kaushad. His once-father’s spirit had been maddened for so long that it could not even realize that Maissel meant Ghanimah’s warmth for Aravel, this time, not Kaushad. But no matter; he would learn soon enough. Maissel hurried away through the maze.
The main chamber was as he had left it; the obsidian basin, overflowing with mist; the glowing stalactite above it; the ancient fat-smith’s spirit swirling slowly around it all. He approached carefully, reverently. The spirit greeted him with a hundred stroking hands drifting slowly out of the mist.
“I have the fat of Ghanimah,” he said.
The basin rippled swiftly. “
Good…” the spirit sighed. “
Good… now you must amend… the Jelly. Take this…” An object ripped suddenly through the fog and clattered into the obsidian bowl with a splash. Blank eye sockets stared up at him, distorted by soundless waves; the object was a jawless skull.
“
Take it…” the spirit whispered. And Maissel slid his fingers through the cold, pure water, and pulled out the dripping skull by its blank eyes.
“
This… will be your cauldron…” the wraith murmured. “
Place your mother’s fat within… and I will light the flame…” Silently, Maissel obeyed, emptying the last droplets of water from the cranium and tremblingly replacing them with the small lumps of cured, yellowish fat he had sliced from his mother’s chest. He did not know what he was doing; he was chilled to the bone by what he had done, but he obeyed, full up with faith in his ancestors.
“
Place it there,” the spirit spake. A hand of mist trailed through the air above the water, and Maissel cautiously extended the skull forward. It jumped from his hand without warning as a burst of cold green flames burst in midair. It hovered there, a floating domed bone licked by unnatural emerald flames.
“
Now…” hissed the spirit as the flames crackled coldly. “
Apprentice again, master-smith… learn your craft as the Zainab practiced it of old. I know the ways… I was the last… I killed the craft… and I birth it anew…” Maissel frowned momentarily. She killed the craft? What did that mean? But her voice rang out without pause.
“
You know… fat. I feel your knowledge… deep, natural, unfettered… but lacking… you know the flesh of guar, of nix, of alit, of kwama, of the vegetable world… but you do not know your own.
You have never used the flesh… of your ancestors…” “
Feel it, fat-smith,” the spirit whispered, whirling around him. “
Feel your mother’s flesh begin to melt. This… is the fruit of life, smith… hard won from the world. Fat is… the purest fleshly storage of potential… of the capacity for change… of power… feel that concentration of strength… your mother won this… from the world, smith. By her worthiness it endures. This is her… soul-strength incarnate. Sense it… give thanks for it… bring the spirit that won it to its surface…” The ethereal voice wrapped him up in its cool tendrils; the words ensnared his mind, and, bit by bit he began to feel – something. A warmth. A consciousness. A presence, slumbering and convectively stirring, concentrated in the floating skull before him.
“
Yes… this is your mother, smith… in fatty indwelling… now ask her blessing… ask her permission to use her power in flesh purified… for your ends…” And Maissel bowed his head to the floating skull, and prayed to his mother. He prayed
for his mother, in sympathy and lament for her long spiritual imprisonment, for whatever tragedy had made her to love an Ashlander chieftain and then torn her from his arms in life and death. He prayed to her in thanks, for nourishing him within her flesh, for making her body his tunnel into the world. He prayed for hope, that soon he would be able to repay her kindness by ending her long loneliness. And he prayed for forgiveness, for
her forgiveness to her aching husband. He whispered to her of the mer’s beneficence, in sheltering her and her son after her advltery, of the pain his choice had caused him, and the pain his spirit still endured in madness and vengeance. He begged her to grant unto the haunting specter a single boon – a single taste of the love and warmth she had always withheld, to ease his suppurating soul.
There was no answer to his entreaties, at least not in words. Yet – somehow, Maissel did not expect one. His spirit guide’s words had trailed off long ago, but some awakened instinct in his oily chandler’s heart had taken their place. His was a business of flesh, not air; his mother’s spirit was with him, suffusing her bubbling briast-fat, but it was the simple, fundamental part of her, the ghostly ectoplasmic flesh. There could be no words from such a manifestation. Instead, the warmth he had sensed grew within him, eased the cured fat from its hardened rind and into languid, liquid malleability. It burgeoned and granted and welled up its power in his heart, and he knew that she was ready.
The Royal Jelly was in his hands; the edge of one knife sliced away the wax covering. The cold, hard outer rind was pale white, streaked with flecks of red.
“Comforts of flesh,” he whispered, raising the orb, “embodied in flesh. The hoardings of life discharged in compaction. Let the pleasures of your flesh and the warmth of your soul season this Jelly, my mother. Join your comforts to these. For your son, for your husband, for your lover, and for the Zainab. Soothe the Wrathful Cuckold, Ghanimah.” And with a gentle
plop, the Jelly dropped into the liquid fat bubbling in the floating skull’s cavity.
The ghostly flames vanished immediately, but still the jawless skull hung in the air, twisting slowly.
“
You have my… a natural talent for the craft…” his ancient fat-smith guide whispered after a long, silent pause. “
You have done… well. The Jelly is nearly complete… take it back to the Cuckold… let him taste of its lipid largess… proud… you make me proud… but swift… the Wailing Well grows… weary. I will cool the Jelly, Maissel, fat-smith of the Zainab… and add my own tribute… goodbye… twice-seeded son of sons…” The hot skull tumbled down into the crystalline water, and with a great hiss the stalactite above was suddenly engulfed in roiling steam. The mist around him dissipated abruptly into faint tatters and fading ribbons; his guide was gone, back to the spirit world, back to the ancestral forum. She saved him from his ancestor’s condemnation, showed him the true nature of his craft, and vanished without even telling him her name. He owed his life and happiness to a nameless spirit.
It was lamentable, but he forced himself to put the wondering from his mind as he stepped up to the obsidian pillar; he still had business to which to attend. The basin was truly empty, this time; its crystal water had condensed above on the dark stalactite. He lifted the fat filled skull from the stone, gingerly, afraid it would yet be hot, but it was cool as spring rain. White fat filmed its eyes, its nose cavity, hard and smooth. The spirit had done well.
He had done well. He had begun to learn the ways of ancient Velothi chandlery, as Maela’s mother had told him he must, what seemed like centuries past. That part of his trial, at least, he had passed.
But there was still the rest of it to be done, and so he hurried away down the sloped slab of the once more dusk filled cavern. Again through the jagged maze, guided by ghostly ancestor sight; again to the isolated alcove where his mother’s corpse had huddled all those years. To ease Aravel’s spirit was his goal, yes, and then to obtain his father’s suet, but he had made a promise to his mother’s spirit, in his fat-smithing prayer. Ghanimah and Kaushad had been separated most of their lives and deaths; he would end their loneliness.
And so he bent down in that low alcove, bent down over the prone mummy’s shredded bandages. He slid his arms gently under her grey sticklike legs, behind her dry, bandaged skull, and lifted his mother into his arms. The skull fell against his chest in a chilling parody of a live womer’s snuggle; the bony feet clattered together. But Maissel was unmoved, save by quiet reverence; this was his
mother – that she was dead was almost irrelevant. He carried her slowly down through the fractured maze, stepping soft and careful. The air was heavy; silent and gravid.
The wide, chiseled stone stairs opened before him as he emerged from the last narrow passage. There was no movement in the high chamber, no stirring in the gloom between the pillars at the top of the stairs. The haunting spirit was nowhere to be seen or heard. Still, it was with caution that Maissel mounted the steps with his mother’s emaciated corpse. He knew in his bones that the Cuckold would show itself again. He was prepared for the shock of its presence.
But when it came, it came with the cold creeping stealth of moonlight. He reached the top of the stairs, where the line of stone pillars fronted a long gallery of carven graves; the entrance to the constructed, formal mausoleum of the Zainab. One second he stood there alone, peering carefully into the gloom; the next, a pale grey figure leaned quietly against the pillar beside him, its form flickering and shifting between two separate superimpositions.
“
Son slips in to succor sin, “ it whispered, and its voice throbbed with melancholy. “
Forever the faithless intend to win.” “You do not understand, father,” growled Maissel hurriedly, turning to the spirit. “I’ve come to help you!”
“
So once I believed,” answered the wraith in Uroshnor’s deeper voice. “
But come you are with traitor in hand for softness and sense upon the rake to land!” The figure began to quaver more rapidly as the voice slipped into high, keening tones. “
And behind matriarch meat shield YOU COWER ON THE FIELD!” “Wait!” shouted Maissel frantically into the wind’s sudden, ear-splitting howl. “Give me a chance!”
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LOVELYTRAITOR’SSANCTITYSAKENOHARMTOBEFALL!” the swelling spirit screamed, growing ever less coherent. “
BUTCONJOINphalusNEVERWE’LLWARDYOUFROMALL!” And the ghost roared forward, through him, like a flash of ice, and then it was swirling between the pillars, screaming. Its misty figure thinned, dissipated, until it stretched like a translucent whirling wall across the entrance to the mausoleum. There it stayed, a membranous stream like pale grey water, its voices whispering in unceasing agony.
And Maissel moaned in despair. A ghostfence. The Cuckold had formed a ghostfence between the chandler and Kaushad’s corpse. Rather than attack him and risk doing injury to Ghanimah’s corpse or allow him to complete his errand, the dipartite spirit had sacrificed its own autonomy to form an impenetrable barrier around Kaushad’s corpse.
“No no no no no no!” he growled desperately as he knelt down to lay his mother’s corpse aside on the stone. “No! You cannot do this to me, father! Grandfather! You cannot do this to me!” He slammed the heel of his fist against the barrier, futilely; it was as solid as steel. “Aravel!” he roared to the wall. “Uroshnor! I am Maissel Sarethi, fat-smith of the Zainab, and I have your salvation! But you must release this barrier if you are to receive it!” There was no answer, save the malevolent whispers. He stared at the wall for a long, horrified moment.
“NO!” he roared suddenly, “NO! You cannot do this to me! I succeeded, damn it! I proved myself a Zainab fat-smith! You cannot let it end this way! I won’t let you!” He pounded the barrier with his fists, slammed it with his shoulder, kicked it with his chitin boots, but there was no change in its ethereal surface. He stumbled away, panting, wiping desperate sweat from his forehead. “This cannot happen,” he muttered. “This. Can.
Not. HAPPEN!” His voice scraqed in his throat. Maela’s dimpled face and swollen belly flashed through his head, and he choked suddenly on the pain burning in his chest.
“No!” he snarled, screwing up his eyes. “I will not let it end this way. You will know my mother’s warmth, Cuckold, if I have to shove it down your spiritual throat myself!” He fell to his knees, pulling his pack over his shoulder and fumbling for the Jelly filled skull where he had stowed it; he was on his feet, facing the spirit’s fence, his broad palms clenched around the skull. They flashed up, above his head, then down, to crack with a resounding ring against the wall. It stood, unshaken. Again, the skull crashed down in the chandler’s huge hands; again, the collision rang through the chamber; again, the wall did not budge.
“By all the ancestors,” the chandler growled in infuriated craze, his bloody eyes wild, the skull high above his grey head, “it will not end this way!” The bone dropped in a third swing.
And it cracked against the wraith’s membranous shield. One entire side of the cranial cavity simply shattered, the shards and flakes that had not been driven into the fat by the impact clattering to the ground.
Maissel sank to his knees before the barrier, cold and empty. His forehead rested against its immaterial support as he stared, unseeing, into the mausoleum beyond. His arms were still stretched above his head, holding the smashed skull where it had struck the ghostfence. There was nothing for him. No hope. No recourse. He had failed. Once more, he had fallen short. He would never again hold plump Maela in his arms. He would never see his child. His life had turned to ash in the tomb of his ancestors.
But as he knelt there, catatonic, something changed in the Cuckold’s spirit wall. It… pulsed. Shivered. It convulsed against his forehead, and he sat back, staring, pulling the skull down into his lap as he did so. And with the skull, like a trailing shroud, the wraithly wall pulled forward. His lungs tightened in shock, and, fearful, he looked down at what he held in his hands.
The Jelly was vanishing from within the ancient skull; bit by bit, bite by tiny tooth marked bite, devoured by an invisible maw. The spirit had pooled in his lap, amorphous and hovering and utterly fixated on the Jelly he held. Its touch was no longer icy, but rather hot, like sultry summer air wreathing his body. And suddenly the spirit shivered and split, and it was two ectoplasmic ribbons that surrounded him, separate, but equally consumed with consumption, feeding insatiably on the Jelly proffered in his broad hands. He was shrouded in the spirits of Aravel and Uroshnor, and in the echoes of the unsurpassable fulfillment his father was experiencing. The spirit devoured the flesh of the mother from the hands of the son and the cup of the dam, and knew satisfaction for the first time in its long life and longer unlife.
Then the Jelly was gone, and there was only the spirit basking wonderingly, awfully, achingly, in the contentment of both flesh and spiritual warmth. It engulfed him in its hot mist, indecently, erotically, its boiling ectoplasm unwittingly stroking his soul. And then, with one long, satisfied sigh… it was gone.
He stared down at his empty hands. His
empty hands; the remnants of the skull, too, had vanished. A halting smile trembled on his lips. Was it possible? Had he really succeeded, after all his struggles, all his despair? Had his father really just devoured the Jelly from his hands, or had he imagined the whole thing in his anguish? Had his mind cracked under the strain? But no; the skull was gone, the spirit was gone, and the way forward was free!
He coughed suddenly in sobbing laughter. The way forward was free! He could complete his trial! He pushed himself awkwardly to his feet, laughing and crying, running his hands wonderingly through his thin grey hair.
Success. Had done it. He scooped his mother’s corpse up from the stone with a light heart, cradled her close against his chest.
She had done it, with her sweet generosity. And she would receive her reward.
He strode forward boldly, boots ringing on the dry mortared stones in the mausoleum’s long gallery. The walls were set with low alcoves, there, where his mummified ancestors lay prone and showered with offerings; incense, gems, flowers, jewelry, and weapons of all kinds. Here was where the most honored of the Zainab ancestors rested. He had but little attention for them, though, despite his natural reverence for the place; his heart was too full, and his mind occupied by just one ancestor.
He found him deep in the gloom filled gallery. His steps slowed, and turned of their own accord with the whispering encouragement in his heart. There was his father. Kaushad Fruitful [censored], laid long alone in his sepulchral shelf, an emaciated, bandaged form wreathed in blackened flowers. His bony hands were incredibly broad. Maissel knelt before the body, wordlessly, bowing his head over his mother’s corpse. He could feel Kaushad’s spirit watching in his mind, but the time was not for speech; what more could be said, after the trials that had gone before? He had succeeded; here he was, fat-smithery mastered, the Cuckold laid to rest, his father’s lover removed from her long quarantine. There was nothing to be said, so he simply prayed in silence, in the unvoiced approval of his blood-father’s regard. Then he stood, and settled the corpse of Ghanimah in beside that of Kaushad, her head nestled on the mer’s wasted chest, one bony leg stretched across his. A single kiss pressed to each of their cloth-wrapped foreheads sealed their spirit-bed. He pulled back, smiling, ready to at last complete the final step of his trial. But something caught at his mind, suddenly; his gaze snagged on a dry wisp of hair trailing from his mother’s skull. Something told him to slice it free and wrap it carefully up in his belt pouch, and only then did he move down, to the Ashkhan corpse’s crotch. The cloth there had already been disturbed – of course; Shabael, when retrieving the baculum that pierced his tongue so obscenely. Maissel shook his head wryly.
“A thousand thanks for your gifts, my father,” he whispered to the corpse. “May we both be worthy of them. Ancestors be praised.”
And deep beneath the earth in the ancient halls of death, of history, of long forgotten feuds and undying loves, deep in the cradle of the chandler’s being, two serrated chitin blades rasped from their sheathes and began slicing away the hardened suet from the loins of Kaushad Fruitful [censored].