Hello again guys, so this is something I wrote out of boredom and curiosity for Seht. I didnt reread, recheck and perfect the thing since I didnt know how well the very idea of it would be taken. I am very interested in sotha sil, and so tried to paint a portrait of his character through the eyes of one of the few characters who knew just about as much as we did about him, well as little. Anyhow lemme know what you guys think, again this is really just a rough draft of something I wrote in one shot. If people are interested ill add more detail into the next ones. "give it a chance but I cant blame you if you want to fire it into the [MAGNUS]" I generally dont feel good about what I write but yeah, I guess im just repeating the above if I go any further. Note: I only use he to refer the nerevarine because I cant refer to him/her as it, I didnt mention race though


Sotha Sil, where does one begin to describe a being that has attained godhood? Note, I

am fully aware of my inability to fully comprehend his persona, Im only trying to paint a

general portrait of the man, as true as possible and as closely resembling what

information my sources have granted me.



One must first understand, this I learned from Vivec before his disappearance where he

bore a sad but resolute visage, those who have attained a manner of godhood may choose

to enter a place outside of time, where they may live for centuries while in truth only

seconds had passed. Take into account what that may do to someone, total seclusion,

freedom to think with no distraction, no influence, not to mention power enough to enact

one’s every wish. Complete freedom. I believe Sotha Sil partook in this activity far more

than his companions, but I shall elaborate on that later.



I also believe he achieved that state that brings one above the common ideals of reality,

perhaps even further, but did not reach the final state. Why? My personal belief is more

speculation than anything, but I believe it to be the truth. To quote Almalexia “Once,

Sotha Sil was like we are, the Lord Vivec and I. He spent time among these mortals,

instructing them, counseling them, protecting them from harm. He may have loved them

more than any of us, though I know not why. It has been many years since any have seen

the Sorcerer, though. Many more since he took initiates into his service. I believe he grew

weary of mortal imperfections, and retired to his Clockwork City, where he reshapes life,

and some say the very world, into an image he finds pleasing.” I believe he could not

fully leave it all behind, that he did indeed love the people moreso than the other two

mortal gods and that was the reason he retired to the Clockwork City. This world, our

world, began with so much promise, tainted beyond memory to bear the failures of our

forefathers and repeat them to no end. I understand words spoken by Almalexia are to be

taken carefully, but here I do not believe she would lie, why would she do so when she

already intended on murdering the Nerevarine and wished him to murder the Tinkerer,

even though she had already murdered him several days before. There might have even

been a slight sting of guilt in the back of her lost mind…



This is how I see Sotha Sil, he loved not just the dunmer, but all. He could not bear to see

the world destroy itself, the failings of mortals, the ignorance, the irrationality, the hatred.

He had tremendous power, but even all of it would not have been enough, to stop wars

what was he to do? Force the very minds of men and mer to peace? To tamper so far with

the world was not his way, and any other way the world might not wish to hear him.



His death only supports my theories, or at least in the way that I interpret it. When the

Nerevarine materialized in the temple, Almalexia, dead, cradled in his arms (for this to

remain about Sotha Sil, I shall keep my reactions to my next entry, about the late god-

queen) we all knew there was more to it, as she wore her war-mask, she never carried it

on her and none knew its resting location. He had told us about Almalexia’s words before

she tried to enact her treachery, of how she murdered the poor mage and intended the

same for the Nerevarine. The part that haunted my mind until long after my pain of

Almalexia’s madness and demise was but a distant memory was that the Tinkerer had not

fought back, but rather watched in silence as she robbed him of his life. Not a word, not a

scream. It is of my opinion that he did indeed feel pain from the situation, but not

physical, I believe he felt pain from seeing Almalexia in her current maddened state,

another victim of mortal folly. He may have even expected it, foreseen it, whether by

simple reflection or divination is irrelevant. The crazed god-queen spoke even of killing

Vivec. Perhaps he wanted death, perhaps he thought he deserved it, as he robbed the

Heart of its power, maybe he thought he could have done more for Nirn and blamed

himself for his inability to aid its inhabitants, we may never know, all we can do is

wonder.




With all his power, his knowledge, he was powerless to stop the world from tearing itself

apart, so he sought solace elsewhere, in a world of his own making, his Clockwork City

free from guilt, pain, influence and other negative emotions. Oft people wonder where it

is located, the speculation is rampant. Were I to make an assumption, however, I would

think that it is not even located inside Mundus, he constructed it to be an escape and a

refuge, I cannot imagine he would have placed it on the very world he tried so hard to

push out of his mind. Although, he did say once that all speculation of its location were

both true and false, were we to speculate wildly, perhaps it is indeed everywhere?

Everywhere at once, so infinitely small that we cannot see it, yet from it, from everywhere,

he shapes things to a better and more prosperous future? At the same time a

metaphorical and literal place? Were it only that we had a clue, or maybe we the answer

lies there, right in front of us, buried beneath the riddles…



I had a meeting with Divayth Fyr, one of the few lucky enough to

have gained his interest and friendship. My own station afforded me a chance to see him

in person once, he was strikingly unique, with his mechanical attire and his golden mask.

I remember his eyes, the only think peeking from behind that veil, but it was enough to

see the exasperation and the guilt. He looked at me as he walked by, he lowered his eyes

quickly enough, I suspect my own mask was not one he wished to remember… I had

never paid that memory much thought until now, our conditioning was so complete, I can

hardly blame him for avoiding us. He was an infinitely interesting character, speaking

sometimes hurtful truths without noticing he may have caused harm.

Forgive me if I tend to digress ever so often, I find little details often more useful than

direct information when it comes to true understanding of a person’s mind. Returning to

Divayth, he informed me he had actually visited the metallic maze in person and told me

of its mind-boggling scope and of its mechanical inhabitants. Although he only caught

simple glimpses of it, nothing enough to draw a complete idea. One silver lining, though

was his manner around the old telvanni wizard and the other enlightened psijic students.

I felt somewhat relieved to hear of his more enthusiastic attitude, even if it was only to be

witnessed by a select few.




Finally I will end with the more unfounded rumors and speculation surrounding the great

mage. Once again a quote from Almalexia “He began to speak of the fall of the Tribunal

and the return of the Old Gods. But Sotha Sil is not a Seer; he is a Maker. He shapes the

Here and the Now, while only I have been privy to what is to come. I know this...he is no

longer the man he once was." Obviously we notice, the god-queen had no talent in

foresight, dieing only several hours after this statement. But it begs the question, why this

specifically? Was she in fact envious of her brother’s potential ability to see the future?

Her first words say he knew of the fall of the tribunal, though she uses them to mock him

they turned out eventually to be naught but truth. Azura, anticipation of Sotha Sil,

certainly proved to dabble in prophecy. Again, this is all only speculation. To end, I

suppose I will address the latest hearings of the Heart of Lorkhan, and Seht’s pact with

the daedric princes. As for what he promised the lords of oblivion, I cannot say, his soul?

The heart? Artifacts? I lean towards choosing the heart. Few knew of its existence, much

less its location, and even less would be able to track it down should it have moved.

Recent rumors in Skyrim indicated it might have been locked away in a dwemer lockbox,

before its recent re-opening. It is of one of my theories that the one to have placed it there

was Sotha Sil, safe from the schemes of the princes. Once again all of these are just the

musings of an old mer, all speculation and theories, I have others of course but I fear that

if I wrote them all down my hands would fail me. The irony is almost painful. Do with

these as you wish, I simply wanted to compile my thoughts of the man and maybe clear up

some of the mystery behind him. However I must regrettably inform that, without access

to the clockwork city and perhaps his journals, we may never discover who he truly was.


-Sincerely, an old and tired sorcerer; Arnas Therethi, ex-hand of Almalexia