I really want this game to succeed. I already purchased my Imperial edition for 80$ and i'm not a blind hater. This is my fourth beta weekend.
I followed this game very lightly, hoping not to kill any surprises. I watched the official videos and the hype stuff. Was excited.
First and second Beta weekend, I just did solo PvE. I had a lot of fun, I felt the combat system was really interactive and cool, I felt powerful and it was an enjoyable experience. That was over a month ago, there were quest bugs but i just brushed them off "its beta, it will be fixed before live."
I even bought a brand new $300 video card solely for this game's launch to better play the game.
Third weekend, i ventured into Cyrodil for the first time. I did the tutorial stuff, learned how to make siege and ran 10 minutes down to an epic siege battle of like 300 players. It was fun as hell, but then the famous lag problems from stress weekend halted that.
Yesterday was a pitiful experience...Yes yes, "Its Beta!" but you know, the game launches in 2 weeks and it was more bugged than ever. I decided to make an archer and I hate that they took away the starting bow. I didn't get a bow until level 5 and that was from a nice guy in zone chat giving me one.
My escape key stopped working and nothing would fix it, not even restarting the game. My entire map was a black square so I could not see where I was going. Constant 5-6 second freeze ups (My PC is extremely over specced for this game). Quest lines were so bugged I couldn't complete them... Every quest npc bugged my view so i had to reloadUI constantly. Quest NPC"s dialogue would intermittently stop working. Action abilities having a blank icon so I had no idea what i was casting...
I started noticing how much the UI was limited (I recently re-subbed to WoW to fill the time inbetween TESO's beta and launch) --- Having no minimap actually does svck. It was compounded by my "black map" glitch to be sure, but it identified to me personally how just relying on the compass alone felt so poor. Only being able to bind 5 abilities with no quickswap felt very limited.
But this wasn't the worst of it. The worst was....
I was bored.
Completely, Bored...
I devoted almost all of last night to Cyrodil. See, I'm a PvP player at heart. I enjoy PvE for what it is, but my end-game staying factor for any game I play is competitive, skill-based, rewarding PvP. I did cyordil on my Nord dragonknight for around 7 hours last night. I want to say about 4-5 hours of that was riding through an endless backdrop of tree's and grass on a white horse with 50 other players, and then running into another zerg and dying very fast; most times dying to overpowered NPC's.
I tried small group skirmishes. 6 players and I decided to break off from the zerg, and go attack an undefended lumber mill 40 minutes travel south, to see if we could build a resistance far away from the zergs.
We dominated any smaller groups we ran into, but once we got there, were immediately killed in 15 seconds by NPC guards. It was a terrible feeling.
I received less than half a level of XP in all 7 hours. There was no progression, and i certaintly was not having fun.
I don't even want to log in today and am heavily contemplating stopping payment and getting a refund. I don't think after last night that i want to spend an entire month riding a horse 40 minutes to die to npc guards and then run back, or deal with a game so bugged that the solo pve content is nearly unplayable...
What am i missing here? Please someone explain to me why I should stay, because I love Elder Scrolls and I want this to work. This isn't trying to be a "Im threatening to quit zenimax!" post, its an honest attempt to retain excitement for this game and actually stick around.