Resdayn Omothan
Biography:
Resdayn's parents Taren and Orero met in Vvardenfell, Morrowind towards the end of the Third Era. Taren was (and is to this day) a pious monk and a Dissident Priest, and a master of martial arts. It is said that once Taren even bested Khajiiti martial artists at a competition in the Mane's own Torval. He is a studious man, devoted to learning and teaching, but for all his vast knowledge and experience you will never find a more humble soul. His counterpart Orero couldn't be more different. She is a wily warrior with a taste for adventure, a learned smith and a former Retainer of Morrowind's Great House Redoran. She is a stubborn traditionalist who often butts heads with Taren over their religious and political differences. Where Taren practices balance and humility, Orero has a thirst for the chaos of the world, and a desire for the grandiose. It is honor that brought the two together in their youth, and it was a fiery spirit they shared that could make them both forget their vows. In the Fall of 3E 432, the signs of their love began to show in Orero. She was pregnant. Both hailing from long forgotten houses, Orero decided to take Taren's name, and the two were married.
Taren, having already played his part in the Dissident Priests' quest for truth, decided to depart the cloister of Holamayan for a life with Orero, who desperately needed his levelheadedness. The two moved to Ald'Ruhn, where House Redoran gave them a home, and Taren began working as a tutor for young Redoran warriors, teaching them the delicate balance of peace within war. In the Summer Orero gave birth to a baby girl, who the couple named Alia, after Almalexia - the wife of Lord Indoril Nerevar - a figure both parents revered in spite of their conflicting beliefs. Together the family survived the horrors of the Oblivion Crisis and The Red Year, making their eventual escape to Solstheim, then to Blacklight following the tatters of House Redoran. Here the couple found reparation to their hardships in a love enduring as the city and people around them. In 4E 7 Orero was with child once again. Seeing the effects of Morrowind's violent nature on their daughter, and the sickness of the land that now seeped into them, the couple decided that this was no fit environment for their daughter and their child-to-come. The family packed their belongings, and fled to the Skyrim city of Windhelm.
On the 13th of Sun's Dawn 4E 8, Orero gave birth to a son. They named him Resdayn after the province now known as Morrowind - a land Taren and Orero both loved dearly. A land of honor and endurance. The years to come would be filled with hardship and grief as the Dunmer refugees in Windhelm were subjugated to much racial discrimination at the hands of Nord nationalists. Resdayn's family would be forced into the 'Grey" Quarter, a district of Windhelm filled with other struggling Dunmer families. Many here would turn to lives of crime to get by, and few would ever get the chance to receive educations or reputable jobs. The life of violence Taren and Orero were desperate to escape followed them to Skyrim. The Omothan family is as resilient as they come, though, and where there is so much will there will always be a way.
This is where Resdayn's story begins, nearly twenty years after his birth.
Journal:
Father's Gift - 13th day of Sun's Dusk 4E 26
I am a Son of Dawn. Yet it is in the heart of Dusk that I open this journal for the first time since my father gave it to me last year on my birthday. He spent many hours tanning hides to make the leather that it is bound by, and many more etching our "House" sigil into it's cover. In truth, as refugees and outcasts, we have no House but our family. Even so, Father's discipline and steadfast hand, and his love for his family, shows through the craftsmanship of this journal. The sigil shows a young warrior atop a mountain reaching skyward to catch a falling Star. I don't know what it means, but it is today, three months from my day of birth that I honor my father and our makeshift sigil by my entry.
I am Resdayn Omothan, of the House Omothan, fourth of my name. My mother Orero is a blacksmith, and my father Taren is a homeschool teacher for local Dunmer here in Windhelm, Skyrim. My sister Alia is a stablehand. She is eight years my senior. There is no school for our people in Windhelm, so I work the forges with my mother by day. She is teaching me the principles of smithing, and the politics of being a salesman. It is hard work, and Mother often makes me feel weak (inadvertently of course), but I am "becoming a mer," as she tells me, and though I am thin, my body is slowly becoming muscled. We supplement the fires with ashes from the "homeland" to remind us where our family is from, though I have never been "home" myself.
In the evening I train with Father in the art of "Reaching Heaven by Violence," as he calls it. It is the art of fists, and mastery over one's self. At night my family tell me stories of the homeland I am named after, Morrowind (it was once known as Resdayn, as I am now.) The history of Morrowind, the coming of the Chimer and Dwemer, the rise and fall of Lord Nerevar and the Almsivi respectively, the destruction of our people's home. It is fascinating to know that a people can endure such horrors. This is my favorite part of the day, and I can feel my chest swell with pride even now as I write. I wish to return to the place of my ancestors one day, but my parents tell me it is not possible.
The Lady - 5th day of Heart Fire 4E 27
Winter never ends in Windhelm. Nearly twenty years I have been here, and the sun is always setting. A Son of Dawn can easily be rendered hopeless by these conditions. But not this mer. Yesterday I met the most beautiful lady I have ever laid eyes on. She is a lovely little Dunmer, short in stature and petite. She has shimmering red hair cut short, about chin-length, and the sun has kissed her face and shoulders, leaving adorable little speckles on her skin. She has the most enamoring eyes ever possessed by a mer. They are blue like the sea! Imagine that, a Dunmer with blue eyes! I wonder if she is magicka-touched? Her name is Massitha Omavel. I hope that I encounter her again. I am working on a special project at the forge today, with Mother's permission. A rose for Massitha, made of glass! Mother says that the volcanic ash from the homelands has been used for centuries to craft even armor and weaponry out of glass! Mother is making a big sacrifice for me today. Not only is she forgoing work to teach me the workings of glasscrafting, she is letting me use the sacred ash of our homelands (of which we have a limited supply). I am trembling with excitement. Hopefully I can steady my hand as to not ruin the project.
The Break - 7th day of Heart Fire 4E 27
Mother and I have finished the stem of Massitha's Rose this morning. I'm surprised at how laborious it was to craft such a small piece! The material is malleable though, so I am confident that I can work with it. At midday Mother told me to take a break, and sent me home to deliver a bundle of wooden training swords to Father, so he could use them to teach his "class" the way of our Ancestors. When I say "class," I really mean a handful of local Dunmer kids Father has taken under his wing. Their parents pay him what they can, but Father says he does it to instill morality in our youth, and that the money is secondary. A lot of Dunmer have been driven to crime here in Windhelm. Its hard to get a job, so most just take what they can from the wealthy Nords, divvying it up in the alleyways. I've even seen it come to blows or worse. Nordmen throats slit in the night over a satchel of coins. Dunmer strung up by their necks in the town square. Heads of both put on spikes at the city gates in an attempt to keep peace through fear. It never ends. Father's goal is to foster a generation of Dunmer who can live with honor and humility, not necessarily living in peace, but who at least have the capacity for it.
Anyways, when I rounded the corner to my home, bundle in hands, I saw my father sparring in the streets with some students. I froze in fear on the corner as three Nordmen seemed to fabricate from an adjacent alleyway, driving the young students away. They circled my father as hungry wolves, prodding him in interrogation. Nords around these parts don't care much for Father's sermons to the Dunmer youth. They prefer us stupid and weak and afraid. Things escalated, and I watched as the Nordmen descended on my father. Or at least they tried. With a waterfall of fluid motion, I watched as my father caught a Nord fist-in-flight, and with a jerk and a kick, I watched the Nord behind the fist pummel into one of his compatriots. They both fell to the ground in a stupor. My father's open-palm then smashed upward into the third Nord's chin before he could blink, and with a quick crouching-spinning kick, the Nord joined the dogpile. Needless to say, my father sent his assailants running for the hills, tails between legs. I dropped the bundle, which exploded in a mess of wooden training swords on the street, and ran to my father. I hugged him for a long time. A tear escaped my eye. I wanted to speak, but I was choked with emotion. "It's okay son," Father said, "go pick up those swords. Your training is going to be a bit... more lively tonight."
The Rose of Massitha - 23rd day of Heart Fire 4E 27
The Grey Quarter hasn't been pestered by Nordmen for days! I don't know if its a good omen, but my gut tells me it isn't. Regardless, I am happy for the respite, even if it is temporary. Massitha's Rose is almost finished, and not a moment too soon. Her birthday is tomorrow! I've been seeing her a little bit every day, when I can steal away from the forge for a few moments. I am convinced she is descended from Azura herself. This rose MUST be fitting to her beauty. I wont rest until it is.
The Kiss - 24th day of Heart Fire 4E 27
I stayed up all night finishing Massitha's Rose. Mother gave me the day off from the forge to get some rest, but I don't know if I'll be able to sleep! When I saw Massitha today I was nervous that my craftsmanship would be too shoddy to impress her, but she was completely enraptured by my creation! I made the rose a dark, swirling blue like her eyes, and when I put it in her hair her ashen cheeks flushed with color. She gave me a kiss on the cheek! I'm going to try to sleep now, or at least stay my thrill-shaken hands.
The Questions - 30th day of Heart Fire 4E 27
At the table this morning as we were eating breakfast, my sister asked me if Massitha and I "did it" yet, much to my parents' chagrin. I don't understand why they were upset. Father said he would explain later.
The Disturbing Answers - 1st day of Frostfall 4E 27
I won't be speaking with Massitha for a while. People are disgusting!
The Silence - 3rd day of Frostfall 4E 27
Winter is coming. Well, Winterhold Winter is coming, which is to say that the world will soon be like the heart of a damned lich. The cold isn't the only thing tensing my body, though. Something foul this way comes. The streets have been too quiet lately. I sense a deep contention festering in the hearts of the city's township. I will be putting this journal away for some time. I have a lot to learn, and trouble carries on a bitter wind.
The Betrayal - 11th day of Morning Star 4E 28
It has been just over three months since I have written in this journal. I have learned more than I thought possible. I have learned things that I never thought could possibly happen. The racial tension between the Nordmen and the Dunmer finally broke shortly after my last journal entry. The streets have been violent. My family and I have had to defend ourselves, almost at every turn. My mother's forge has been subject to night raids. My father and I have been assailed in the streets as blasphemers. We've been beaten by mobs We have even been attacked with lethal intent by those who would call my people a plague or worse. Some even think my father plans to usurp the throne of Windhelm with the Grey Quarter Dunmer at his back.
Things have calmed in slight over the past week as attention is turning to the rumors of some Altmer uprising in the West, but I know its just a matter of time before it gets worse again. My father has stopped tutoring the locals for now. He fears it is too dangerous, and I don't blame him. He and Mother have been arguing a lot lately, which is still surprising to me. I guess Mother is the one person who can actually get a rise out of him. I'd never seen him lose composure before now, and Alia ensures me it is not a common sight. "Even if he is a monk of sorts," she told me, "He is still only a mer. To him he is the Lord of this House." My sister and I have gotten very close in these months of strife. My father has become distracted and distant, and Mother has become cold and hostile. I always knew that the Nordmen might tear us apart, but now I'm afraid we may do them the honor ourselves.
The worst though was last night, which is the purpose for my entry - to remember the most foul of my blood so that I will not become it myself.
My father had left Windhelm with a group of other Dunmer. Their destination was a camp they had set up over the course of the past few weeks to use for "hunting." Of course, they always return with fresh game, but I know they are secretly consorting there, training perhaps, while the Nordmen are distracted by the affairs of the Empire. Anyways, Mother and I worked the forge hard during the day, trying to make up for the goods lost in the raids. While we worked iron and steel, I worked her to let me see Massitha that night (with whom I am on speaking terms again, but that is for a later entry.) "Alia has been seeing boys for years now," I argued, "some of them not even Dunmer!" She had no choice but to reluctantly agree. So after work I scurried home, washed, and spoke with Alia for a bit before we both stole into the night. When I returned home to say goodnight to Mother and retire myself, my eyes were met with a most abhorrent sight; Mother was laying with another man! I screamed out in a mixture of fear, outrage and confusion, but my mother quickly leaped from bed covered by a sheet and squeezed my mouth in her strong hands. Meanwhile the Dunmer she was laying with fled out the bedroom window, naked, into the night.
My mother gripped me sternly, keeping me silenced. "You must never breathe a word of this to your father," she whispered in shaking desperation. I went to bed ashamed and infuriated.
This afternoon when Father returns I will tell him what she has done.
The Husk - 13th day of Morning Star 4E 28
I told Father of Mother's transgression. In only two days, by father has become the shell of a Mer. Complacent. Unresponsive, especially to mother, and spineless when he does speak. Where is my beautiful, proud King? His soul is killed, and mine maimed as mere Witness. I feel I have betrayed my family as much as Mother did. I don't know how to continue. My heart is on fire, and it will not leave my throat.
The day of my birth is in a month, but I wish I never had one at all.
Mother's Gift - 13th day of Sun's Dawn 4E 28
Today I am twenty years old, but I feel like I am two-thousand. Father still seems like half the man he used to be, but I think he is recovering. Mother bared Witness to the consequences her actions had on us all, and I can tell by looking upon her... it has wounded her deeply. A heavy shadow looms about me. I can feel it weighing on my shoulders and lingering in my eye sockets. Mother can tell too. Today she surprised me with a gift; a special project she has been working on for weeks in secrecy. It is a dagger of pure black with a silver hilt. The pommel has a ruby embedded within. She tells me that the blade is forged from the blood of an ancient god, Lorkhan. "All the best blades have a name," she said. Some tears slid from my eyes. I held her. "Moon-tear," I sobbed. She smiled tiredly, "A beautiful name." She looks older every day.
Massitha stopped by the forge to give me a kiss, and show me her new dress. It is a gorgeous, deep red, gilded with golden embroidery in traditional Dunmer designs. The skirt of the dress is long and flowing, the type that billows beautifully in the breeze. She's still wearing the Rose in her hair. She looks like a dream. Tonight is the night Massitha and I have promised ourselves to each other. We will give freely our sanctity to one another, so that we can share it in a life together.
Many others came to the forge and went. There is a lot of activity in town today. Drunken Nordmen wander the streets in broad daylight, reminiscing about battles they probably never fought. Many speak of Ysgramor and his five-hundred Companions, and their exploits. Many brawl and womanize. Many more vomit and trip over their own ideas of themselves - I mean feet. Why in Vehk's name does this damned Feast of the Dead have to fall on my birthday? It's no wonder Nord shares consonance with N'wah.
The Shadow - 30th day of Second Seed 4E 28
It has taken me over two months to stomach my disgust and my anger for existence enough to even pick up my quill and write this entry. I only document this now to remind me of my suffering, and to remember the demons I must confront and never become. On the thirteenth day of Sun's Dawn, day of my birth, my love was cut from my heart. Massitha and I had promised ourselves to each other, and that night was meant to be a consummation of the blossom we had tenderly cultivated in one another. When I was walking the back streets to her home, I saw four Nordmen huddled in an alleyway to my right, a fifth sort of half-squatting behind a sixth figure who was down on hands and knees. The squatting Nord clutched in his right fist a golden-gilded piece of deep Red fabric. He was thrusting and grunting. The others were laughing and drinking. The Sixth was Massitha, and she was on hands and knees, screaming and crying as the gang of filthy Nordmen forced themselves upon her. My heart was no longer on fire... it was erupting.
It was a clear night, full of laughter, music, brawling, feasting and stories. Enough acoustical chaos that no one heard the "shing!" of me hastily drawing Moon-tear from its sheath, or the sound of my frantic footsteps as I barreled blindly towards the Nordmen. If the night wasn't so full of Moons and Stars, then maybe they wouldn't have noticed the blood-Red glint of my blade shining with starry vengeance. But it was, and they did, and after that I don't remember much except shrieking terror and dreams of flesh-ripping ash that tore me to bits.
I awoke covered in semi-stale blood, both mine and the blood of Nordmen. I had felled two of the bastards in my vicious struggle, but when it all went black my blade changed hands, and Moon-tear was used against me. But there was the blood of another mingling here, I could feel it. I found the source, and my Moon-tear too. It was stabbed into Massitha. She was flayed open and crucified to a wall, with my blade in her Heart. Her eyes were frozen open in paralyzing fear. Once stunning blue, they were now stained Red with blood. I laid her down. I held her lifeless body. I shut her eyes.
I don't care to go on, as even now I am trembling with anguish, but for all their strength and anger, the Nordmen couldn't break Massitha's Rose. I carry it always.
The Red Dream - Sixth day of Sun's Dusk 4E 28
Last night I had a Red Dream.
The world was painted Red with ash.
I stood amongst the wreckage
of a Living-God's Broken Hope.
The surrounding sea was seething,
begging me the question:
"What is the beginning of the words,
and how does it end?"
I looked to the Red Center of the land
Where a Smoking Mountain is wounded by a falling star.
I knew that, if only I could catch it,
that Star would hold the answer.
The Star put language in the skies,
and though I could read
the letters it spelled before collision,
when I moved my lips
to speak the words
my voice was drowned with so many others
in the Sea that Scathes even ghosts.
The sound instead was that of a Drum first,
and then Bells that ring in Six different tones,
both pulsating from the Star-Wounded Mountain.
The ash beneath my feet began to dance
to the fatalistic rhythm.
Against my expectations my feet also shook,
and I too Danced,
Uncontrollably,
until I became the Music
and I enveloped the Red countryside.
The Maimed Mountain became my core,
and within it behind walls of smoke
is the Drum that was my Heart,
beating with fervor.
I felt as a bubble,
expanding with so much smog
and shaking with Music
and on the verge of a BURST,
but a Burst I knew would engender a New-Bubble,
One where my people would be weightless.
One where my people could be free.
But at the Heart of the Red Dream, there is a web being spun.
A web wrapped tight around the Drum
by a bloated,
cancer of a Half-Spider
with "tick-tock, tick-tick"ing feet.
His threads constricting,
restricting my Heart from beating that bubble to burst.
Instead, my bubble just keeps filling with smoke
and ash
and disease
and Souls Sickened with pain and hatred
until I become bloated;
a cancer.
A Lover who cannot be heard.
A Lover who cannot be ignored,
because I know the tongues the Spider fears.
The beginning of the words is ALMSIVI...
and the Red Dream never ends.
Alia's Gift - 15th day of Sun's Dusk 4E 28
-Morning-
I have seen over twenty years come and go in Windhelm. That is twenty years too much for me. It is true, I have known happiness here, and I have grown strong with uncut hair that falls over my shoulders. It is true, my family has known recovery here, and even now they are rejuvenating from the sufferings of this harsh world. Things are looking up for them... but this is not our home. As for me, well I'm looking up, with the sun in my eyes and my shadow behind me in the Heart of Dusk. There is a sickness in my soul, I can feel it writhing and inflamed. It will not stop haunting me until I go to the homeland and catch the "Star the Wounds the Mountain." I have been working the forges hours after Mother heads home each day. For eight long months this has been my life, selling blades. I finally got enough money for passage to Vvardenfell, Morrowind, albeit on the back of an "expedition ship" called “The Serpent’s Wake.” Supposedly the Wake used to dock in Cyrodiil, but it was displaced during the Oblivion Crisis. Now The Serpent’s Wake roams the seas, hosting expeditions for coin. A bizarre tale to be sure, and also an opportunity I cannot pass up, lest I should succumb to madness in its stead.
The Wake is bound to be filled with all manners of adventurers. Some might even have the stones to walk with me into the Heart of Chaos itself. Only time will tell. I will arrive in two days' time. I leave tonight. I cannot bare to face my family. They will not know I'm gone until it’s too late. They will not know my cause until it is fulfilled. Maybe then our House can have a true Home, and we can be the Hosts of Lords.
-Afternoon-
I spent my morning (and the rest of my money) gathering materials to make keepsakes for my family.
To my Sister, a silken dress of silver and black, so she may shine with the beauty of Moon and Star.
To my Father, an ashen pendant baring the engraved sigil of His House, so he may always know who he is, and never forget where he came from.
To my Mother, a Rose of deep purple glass, so she may feel the cherish of her family, and blossom into eternity.
I will spend the rest of my day refining these gifts, delivering them, and spending my last day for the foreseeable future with my beloved family.
-Evening-
Dinner was so delicious tonight I started crying at the table, concerning everyone. I ensured them it was just the spices of the food, and went to my room after clearing my plate. Now I sit alone, the sounds of sleep slowly surrounding me. The ringing in my soul-sickened ears will not cease. My distinguished, mid-back-length hair sits in a large bun atop my head. It's time to cut my mane and hit the road.
-Night-
I sneaked out of my own house like a burglar in the night. I feel like a s'wit, like the lowest of the low, but I know I must go, so I go to the gates. I am filled with self-hatred as I slip through a crack in the city wall that only someone of my slim stature could snake through. A crack overlooked... no, overshadowed by decades of the city's internal struggles; a struggle I now shared as I slinked into the night air - much fresher on the other side of Winterhold's barricades. An ocean of self-loathing washed over my senses so thick as I traversed the Bridge to Freedom, that I scarcely heard my sister galloping up behind me on the back of a horse. "By Azura!" I shouted, unaware of my own volume, "Oh Alia, it's you. What the hell is your problem? And what are you doing here?!" "Oh little brother," she replied smugly, "do you think I didn't know what you were up to?" In spite of her snide attitude, I could see the sheen of Alia's tears in the moonlight. She hopped down off her horse and threw her thin - yet strong - arms around my neck. I held her too, and we wept and laughed for a time. "If you're going," Alia sniffled, "then I brought you a horse. I stole it from the stables, but I've got a cover story so take it. And take this." She held out in front of her a satchel and what looked to be a long, semi-curved sword wrapped in a battered leather pseudo-sheath. "What's this then?" I interrogated. "The bag just has some herbs and other medicinals-" I cut her off with a quick, "No, that blade there in your left hand!" She handed it over and I unwrapped the leather from the blade. It looked to be a steel sword, but again, it was curved in a curious manner. Alia could read my confusion. "They don't make blades like that in this province," she began, now congested from sobbing, "for the past two years, give or take, I have been sneaking to Ma's forge at night to salvage steel from blades and armor, smelting it down, and pounding out this blade for you. It's made after Lord Nerevar's http://vignette2.wikia.nocookie.net/elder-scrolls-fanon/images/6/66/Trueflame.png/revision/latest?cb=20140704145245."
I felt the biggest smile in twenty years crack over my face, and I held my sister, spinning her towards the Stars. "It is the finest gift I have ever gotten, Alia," I proclaimed, genuinely ecstatic. "I'll call it Heartburn, er-" we both burst into hysterical laughter before my eyes lit up and I fell silent. "What is it, brother?"
"I know what I'll really call it."
"Tell me Resdayn!"
"Red Dream."
I thanked Alia for the horse, and we said our goodbyes. Now, as a Son of Dawn I am riding into the Heart of Dusk. I will ride to Dunmeth Pass, where I will be taken from Skyrim. First by horseback, then by boat.
To the East.
To Morrowind.
As for this journal, I will toss it into the sea when I get Home. My hair is cut to my chin. My name is known only by the long since dead. Now I shall be known to Tamriel as Resdayn Omothan, of House Resdayn, first of my name. May the tides carry my words to every corner of this land.
~The Lover that cannot be heard.
The Lover that cannot be ignored.