If this is your first time playing a Bethesda RPG, I extend a very warm welcome to you.
Aid and recovery group, this forum is it lol!
Alot of us are here since Morrowind days
Pace yourself, try to finish the main quest first if you can, and slowly enjoy the game. (Do note, main quest may lock out some quests)
If you're playing on a PC, mods will consume your life. Fact.
This is actually a healthy and lucrative addiction with few downsides. No need to feel ashamed. Embrace it.
I thought you were talking about Chems....... I was gonna say, that Buffjet though. Good stuff.