» Fri Feb 18, 2011 8:20 pm
So.
This is pretty much the last we will see of Morgiah's previous life. We've gone all the way from Wayrest to the end of Firsthold, and everything you need to know about how her life reached this point is tucked away in those interludes somewhere. As of the next chapter, we will be residing exclusively in the present, and all hell is going to be breaking loose as Helseth's plan comes to completion. You have been warned!
Just to note; he exposition in this chapter deals in some part with the events in http://www.imperial-library.info/mwbooks/firsthold_revolt.shtml You'll understand more of what I'm babbling about with revolutions and Gialene if you read it; it's very short.
The King And I
Chapter Thirty-Four ? Interlude Thirteen; The Penultimate Reflection
Firsthold, Summurset Isle, Frostfall 3E 427. It is eighteen months before the present day. Morgiah is fifty-one.
It was dusk. The sky was a bowl above the world, violets and lilacs draining out of the west as if through some cosmic sinkhole. It laid an unreal light over the architecture of Firsthold. There was no point of origin; the sun had already disappeared and the moon had not yet risen. Just steady, dim dusk.
Of course, Firsthold had never really seemed real to Morgiah, not even after all these years. She counted them sometimes, when she forgot. Twenty? Twenty-one? Could it really have been so long? The years shimmered like soap bubbles; separate, remote. It was as if she had been living in a trance.
Over time in Firsthold she had achieved a kind of respect from the city's people, though their love had always eluded her. She supposed it was an acceptable substitute. The Revolt had been the turning point, she could see with the benefit of hindsight. It had all been the fault of that simpering royal concubine, Gialene ? that the girl thought she actually had a chance of cajoling Reman into marrying her said all Morgiah needed to know about her intelligence. Her plan to manipulate the commons' mistrust of their "Black Queen" to instigate a revolution had been a good base, she had to admit ? it had the scent of Elysana about it ? but in the end, it lacked the finesse to bear fruit. She had often wondered in amusemant at the outcome of locking Gialene and Elysana in a room together. As much as she was loath to admit it, Elysana could probably rip out the Altmer woman's entrails without displacing a single golden ringlet.
And of course, negotiating tricky situations such as the looming Revolt had been so much easier since her fateful trip to the Glenumbra Moors, and the artefact she had returned with?
When she thought back on reading the Infinium, the memories were like a paradise flower, each layer revealing a different colour and texture. To her, every page seemed deeper and more enduring than the last, though when questioned, she could not have articulated exactly what they held. One might think the conscientious reader would endeavour to go back and reread each page carefully before progressing to the next, but the nature of the Infinium was such that this notion never crossed Morgiah's mind, even had she not been so entirely captivated by the book's spell. You kept turning pages until the end, and when you finished, the book disappeared. That was the way it worked. Reaching the back cover was like waking from a dream; closing it was seeing the harsh morning light pouring through the window of your mind.
She had been right. Everything was different.
Her sight had sharpened. Not explicitly, but when she looked at something ? or someone ? there was the quality of being able to look through them, to the thoughts and desires that lay beyond. It was not so easy with people she had a particular attachment to; she suspected her own emotional involvement with such individuals obscured the clarity of her vision. Nevertheless, in the following years she would become increasingly familiar with looks of uneasiness and discomfort from her courtiers. "Piercing" and "intuitive" were the more polite terms the Firsthold gentry applied; less flattering were the whispered descriptions of "unnatural", "witch-like," and on one memorable occasion, "eyes of a damned snake".
She took it all in her stride. It had been worth the price, for her newfound insight was incomparably valuable. The Gialene fiasco proved as much; Morgiah had looked through her head and read her like a book. It had been so easy.
She was standing by the window in the private chambers she shared with Reman, looking out over the ornamental gardens. This area of the palace had always been her favourite; the lawns and borders had been raised by some enterprising architect onto a series of glass walkways, spiralling around the residential wing of the castle until the highest feature, a sculpted crystal fountain, was more than a hundred feet from the ground. A stream of pure water flowed artfully from the tip into a pool in the central courtyard far below.
As she looked at the fountain glowing faintly in the violet dusk, she experienced a strange sensation. It was as if the air had suddenly been drawn out of the world, leaving it a vacuum, quiet and expectant.
Her head jerked and her hand flailed for the window frame as Hermaeus Mora took hold. Flick flick flick ? a dark room, candlelight, Reman at his desk, head drooping with tiredness? and then leaning to the side, sliding off his chair and falling to the floor? a servant running to his side, crying for help?
She came back slowly to herself. The window frame was digging into her hand.
She turned around. Reman was behind her, asleep in the four-poster bed; he looked uncharacteristically small. He had been sleeping more and more these days. Getting slower, wearier.
She turned back to the window, inevitability settling over her like a blanket of snow, unstoppable, massive, unyielding. She could not know for certain, but the vision had instilled in her a quiet bleakness that made her think his time would not be long now. A year. Maybe less.
And what would she do then?
Stay?
Not really an appealing thought. With Reman gone and her quest for the Tome fulfilled, her ties to Firsthold would be nonexistent. The citizens tolerated her as a trophy queen, but she would have a revolt on her hands ? a real one this time ? if she announced a desire to succeed the throne in her own name. No, they would put Reman's remaining eldest son in power, and she would be relegated to Dowager Queen. Dowager, at her age? The title made her think of Daggerfall's Mynisera, all thin lips and colourless hair and bitter memories. No, life held more for her than that.
Go, then? But where, and to whom?
Her options were limited. It was possible she could arrange herself another marriage ? her status as Firsthold Queen would open more doors than Wayrest Princess. But she was tired of depending on others for her status and power; if she married again, it would be on her terms. And she could be waiting a long time for that.
Wayrest was closed to her forever. Eadwyre was dead, her family long gone, and Elysana would rather show hospitality to a man-eating nixhound than Morgiah. Besides, she was too proud. Wayrest was not an option.
And Morrowind??
She rolled the idea around in her mind experimentally, like a jeweller appraising a rare specimen of gem. When she thought of joining her family there, an indefinable feeling possessed her ? whether dread or excitement, she wasn't sure. Of course, it would be pleasurable to see Barenziah. Her mother visited once a year, but these journeys were far from hazardless and had become less frequent of late.
Then there was Helseth?
She had not seen him now for twelve years. This coincided exactly with her last trip to Wayrest. Helseth and Elysana had been at daggers drawn, and in her six-week stay she had seen her brother all but twice. They had grown into strangers. She'd left feeling as if someone had died, and in the following years even his infrequent letters had stopped. It was as if he had simply forgotten she existed.
If she went to Mournhold, what would it do to their relationship? Would it heal it, or sound its final death-knell? There was only one way to find out.
She padded softly towards the bed. The room was dim, but the remains of daylight reflected by the glass towers shed a soft illumination over the walls. As she sat on the coverlet, anyone watching might have observed that as she looked at her husband, her expression was very different to the impassive shrewdness the Firsthold court was so familiar with. She looked tender, and a little sad.
Morgiah drew the draqes and shut out the light.
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