This is heartbreaking. : V - Skyrim

» Fri Dec 16, 2011 11:33 pm

My dad died when I was 12. I still have the LOTR boxed set of novels he got for me. I wish he would have been alive to see the LOTR movies. :sadvaultboy:

I bet he would have loved TES.

» Sat Dec 17, 2011 10:03 am

Jesus Christ. Thanks for triggering my PTSD and ruining my night with this horribly, horribly depressing post.

Though it is depressing, it's kinda beautiful to. I can feel the mans love permeating through my screen so to speak.

My Daughter to has passed on.It was this past October.She was only 21. What a truly sad story,I feel bad for that man.

So sorry. My thoughts are with you and all those here with recent loses.

A friend linked me to this page. After reading some of your comments I was angry at first, but then I thought I wouldn't want any of you to ever have to feel what I have. One of you deemed me a hipster, because you think it's odd that I find some solace in a videogame. The truth is, there isn't a SINGLE outlet that I do find solace in, but many. I listen to our song, sometimes I smell her clothes or stare for hours at her picture etc. Skyrim was something we were both looking forward to. She loved fantasy role-playing games. She will NEVER get to play it. As for those of you that are turning what I said into some sort of God debate, that isn't what I intended. I said, "If there is a heaven...", keyword there is "IF". I don't know if there is a heaven, I'd like to believe there is but no amount of debating is going to settle what is primarily a belief, especially on the internet of all places.

Our heaven would be a place where me and her can shape our surroundings. Perhaps we'd spend a lifetime living normal lives. Another in a fantasy. It's all hypothetical. Some of you missed the point I was trying to make. It brings me closer to her because I'd like to believe that right now she's in that place. In a way I get to be with her.

For those of you that do not think this is real, that's fine believe what you want. A simple Facebook search would do. Or if you still doubt it here are our gamertags on XBL:

Mine: Jon Angelo GS 74000
Hers: Mrs. Mentos GS 30000

Why point out the gamerscore? Because even then there are those of you that would doubt it, but would I create 2 different XBL accounts, accumulate 100,000 in combined points/achievements in the hopes that one day, maybe just maybe, I can make up a story about my wife dying so I can get a few people on the internet who I will never meet or want to, just to get attention?

It doesn't matter, for those that are cynical: I hope you are never loved or will love as much as me and her have and never have to experience this grief when inevitability one of you will die and be left with this pain. And that's the worst possible thing I can hope for any of you. Dying is easy, living is hard.

Welcome to the community Jon.

I to am sorry you've had to read such drivel from those who can't seem to follow mommie's advice. "If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all".

Don't let them push your buttons and get you to upset. People are "brave" from behind a KB.

As I said above, though your story is sad, I do find your love for her and the need to share it beautiful. Keep positive! Let the children post their drivel and leave it to the mods to deal with. I hope you stick around and find out this is really a good community, for the most part. Most are very supportive in many regards.

I wish you and all those who've lost someone the best and hope time helps lessen the hurt some. It'll never truly go away unfortunately. I still cry for a friend I lost almost 20 years ago from time to time. And he was just a friend. (Though friend = family to me.)

» Sat Dec 17, 2011 8:19 am

This is an example that undermines the antosocial gamer stereotype that is so prevalent amongst nongamers, including people in positions of power and academic researchers. Hopefully, an experience such as this one, and most importantly the sharing of it, will open more eyes and hearts to the reality of gaming and help people avoid the stereotypes.