I know the feeling exactly. It was scary for me too. I honestly didn't know if I could do it. The word 'trepidation' comes to mind.
This probably sounds like an exaggeration. But the thing is, I've been modding since the early days of Morrowind. I live with a a veteran Morrowind modder too. So modding has always been important to me. I used to say that I didn't play Morrowind, I played mods.
Some of my Morrowind games ran over 500 mods, mashed and merged together, constantly being changed to suit different games and characters. In truth, I spent way, way too much time doing this. The amount of time I spent modding Morrowind was unhealthy. I had no life during that period. I was lost to modding for a good year and a half. I told myself that being addicted to modding was better than being addicted to drugs. Which it was, I suppose, but it was still an addiction.
This is probably one of the reasons why I have cut back on mods in recent years. While I'm much more mentally healthy these days (at least I think I am *nervous laughter*), in the back of my mind I always worry that the old modding "demon" will consume my life.
So I feel as though I know exactly what you mean when you talk about 'freeing' yourself. I do feel freer now than I did when I was making and downloading hundreds of mods. While I miss the excitement of finding some new gem or making something myself that I think is really cool, I also enjoy the spontaneity of just jumping into a game without spending days or weeks preparing a mod list beforehand. I am discovering more and more the power of imagination to do many of the things I used to rely on mods to do for me. My pal Renee Gade has been my guide in showing me how to do this.