» Fri Apr 08, 2011 9:17 am
FRIEDA ~~ her house ~~ Early evening
She had either started daydreaming very deeply, or had dozed off. She was jerked back to her senses with the sudden, fitful movement on the bed beside her. “Frieda,” Pawnee rasped, “are you here? I – I can feel you. I’m sorry. I. . .don’t. . .stay away from me. . . stay away. . .He’ll hurt you. I’m sorry, Frieda. I’m a [censored]-up and I’m sorry. I'm stupid. I’m a dead man. I love you Frieda, but I'm a dead man."
Frieda felt her heart break at his pleading tone. She never thought she'd see Pawnee so helpless, and so desperate. "Shhhh," she hushed him as gently as she could, pushing him back down onto the mattress. "Relax, Pawnee, you're safe. Ryler -- the medic -- he checked you out and you're banged up but you'll survive. Definitely not going to die," she smiled, trying to joke. Frieda reached over to rub his chest but realized she hadn't changed his shirt yet and thought better of it.
She stood up and immediately rummaged through the ruined armoire she had pushed in front of her window just the day before. She came up with a shirt but not much else. Better than nothing. She ripped the collar so it would be easier to get over his swollen head and returned to the bed. Pawnee had sat up again and was swaying where he sat. "You've got a lot more recovery to do. Arms up." She pulled his sweaty, bloody, and vomit-soaked shirt off over his head, tossed it to the ground outside the bedroom door, and pulled the clean one on.
"There you are. Don't try to talk, you need to rest. Here," she pressed one of the painkillers Ryler had left her with into his mouth before laying him back down. Frieda then rubbed his chest as she had meant to earlier. "No one is going to hurt a hair on your head without going through me, first."
AFTER SUNDOWN
After another round of painkillers, Pawnee had fallen back to sleep. Frieda leaned against the bedpost, a deep frown on her face, feeling troubled. Pawnee looked as though he had lost twenty pounds, but she knew that couldn't be true -- she was merely projecting an image of a frail, infirm man onto him. Ryler and Harlen both wanted to know when he woke up but she was too tired to leave, and didn't feel comfortable doing so, anyways. Not after how upset he was after waking up, before.
Frieda sighed. Looking at him so broken really affected her in some way. One moment he was brimming with life, coaxing her to stop being so "serious", even joyful, and the next...reduced to an desperate, swollen, helpless mass.
She decided she missed him the way he had been. She couldn't help but think about how he had crawled back to her, and not Celeste, or Brandy. That had to count for something. Or not. Out of those options, I'm the only one who seems to keep a head on her shoulders about anything. She chose to ignore that he had said he loved her. Frieda reached down and gently rubbed his chest. "You're going to be okay," she reassured him for the millionth time since discovering him on her doorstep. Just then, his hand twitched and he mumbled something, but it was unintelligible.
Frieda was about to break down completely when she heard footsteps were coming up the stairs. Her attention immediately turned to the door. Celeste appeared, looking harried. "How is he?" she demanded. She looked as though she'd been crying.
Frieda waved a hand towards Pawnee's body but did not otherwise reply, raising a finger to her lips. Celeste peered over and teared up again. She sniffed but did not begin to sob.
"Can I talk to you?" she asked Frieda.
Frieda stood up and motioned they leave the room. Celeste left first, followed by the blonde, who shut the bedroom door gently behind her. "What do you want?" Frieda was feeling exhausted and didn't relish the thought of having a fight with the bar maid at the moment.
Celeste wiped the tears out of her eyes and took a deep breath, though did not immediately speak. "I don't know how else to tell you this, but Pawnee...well, I think he got so hurt trying to make you happy."
Frieda narrowed her gaze, immediately irritated. "Pardon me?"
"He came into the diner this morning, beside himself. Absolutely..." Celeste bit her lip as she tried to find the word she was looking for. "...lovesick."
Frieda scoffed. "I'm sure he was, until someone else walked in, right?" She crossed her arms and shook her head. "Look, Celeste, I appreciate what you're trying to do, but you...you don't know what I saw, you don't know how hurt I was. I only have myself to blame, because I fell for his...well, everything." Frieda blushed at the confession, but kept on. "He may have said he wasn't lying, but his actions proved otherwise. That's all."
Celeste trembled in anger. "I can't believe you're still such a...such an ice queen, Frieda. I heard what he screamed at you that day, that he was sorry, and he told me just this morning he wanted to explain things to you, but you wouldn't let him. He told me all about how much he cares for you -- he says he is actually falling for you --"
"Do you have a point?" Frieda interrupted sharply. He already told me and I'm trying to pretend he didn't mean it. She was losing her patience. "What happens between Pawnee and I is our business, by the way, and I find your intrusion to be quite rude."
"Fine," Celeste snapped, putting her fists on her hips and trying to make herself look tall. Unfortunately, Frieda was easily head and shoulders taller. "I just wanted to tell you, he asked me how to win you back, and after that, he disappeared for the day and came back like...well, like that," she replied, pointing towards the bedroom for emphasis.
"You're starting to make me very angry, Celeste," Frieda replied with an icy tone. "I don't appreciate you implying I sent him on a suicide mission from which he barely survived. If anything, you did, with whatever 'advice' you gave him." She took a breath and toed the floor. "I was nothing but honest with him -- and for your nosy information, I merely informed him I wanted no part of his philandering ways. If he wants to date around, that's fine, but I reserve the right to not be involved."
Celeste's face was twisted in confusion. Frieda rolled her eyes and sighed.
"Philanderer. A player. Manipulator of women."
"Oh," Celeste replied softly. She paused. "Well...you should reconsider. He and Brandy, it was just harmless. Brandy got the wrong idea. He misses you."
Frieda exhaled through her nose but said nothing, suddenly very interested in the floor. "Is that all?"
Celeste swallowed. "I guess. Can I go see him?"
Frieda shrugged and motioned towards the door. "He's asleep. You have five minutes. I'm going downstairs for a drink of water. When I come back up, it's time to go."
Celeste nodded mutely and quietly entered the bedroom. Frieda went downstairs into her kitchen but instead of getting her drink, simply hung her head over the sink. He went and asked Celeste for advice. [censored], Pawnee...
"You okay?" Celeste's voice was behind her. Frieda was startled out of her brooding.
"Yeah, thanks. I'm just...tired."
Celeste nodded. "You'll take care of him, right?"
"Of course."
"Okay. Well, I'll have someone send you some breakfast in the morning. Goodnight, Frieda."
Frieda nodded and watched Celeste leave. After she shut the front door, Frieda picked up one of the ruined chairs and propped it underneath the door handle. When she returned upstairs, Pawnee was still laying in the same position as he had before, not having moved a single muscle.
You sure don't make things easy. In spite of herself, she smirked. Maybe I've had it too easy. Maybe it's a sign... Frieda sat back down in her chair and propped her head up on her elbow on the bed frame once more. She reached down and took his hand in hers again, and drifted off into an awkward sleep.