man, I am not looking forward to tomorrow
I have yet another surgery at 7:30 am tomorrow. you'd think after going through so many I'd be used to it, but I'm not I don't know why, for all intents and purposes this should be fairly simple, I've been told by the surgeons to be optimistic about this. Relative to the other surgeries I've had this particular one should be a walk in the park.
basically I have a clogged tear-duct and drain.
problem?
it's on my blank side, the part of my face that doesn't have an eye. Normally the surgeon would weave a new tube through my eye-socket (I think) and string it into my nose without making an incision and is usually a very quick and simple procedure. But the lack of an eye makes this a lot more complicated apparently. he doesn't know what to expect, he'd rather not cut open the left side of my face, so he's planning on sending up a camera probe through my nose and weaving the tube that way. Again though, he's been reminding me constantly how he really doesn't know what to expect and so it's very cautious about the outcome.
this damn thing couldn't have been timed worse either, it's the end of Senior year for me and that means a lot of year-long projects are coming to conclusion around the same time as my recovery so I'm really worried about whether I'll be able to give my presentations on the required days or even take my AP tests which can't be post-poned.
at any rate, I'm gearing myself up for all this. the surgeon says that it should work out fine and I should I only be out for three days, which I'm really hoping will be the case. I also hope my own willpower will be able to muster me back to a functioning state and make it so this weekend is all I need to recover.
anyway, yeah, I'm feeling pretty anxious about this and was wondering who else here has been under the knife? how many times? Anyone else in my situation? I hope no on else is going in for something worse, but if you are, vent your aggressions here too if you want.