I have been bullied, and I have bullied. Particularly in elementary school, and middle school. I was the punching bag everyone went to for stress relief. Kids actually took the time to spread rumours about me, some of them true, unfortunately, and I was relentlessly teased about it. I've been through everything from physical abuse, to verbal abuse, and yes, even sixual abuse, which took until
well past high school to get over and move on from. Come high school, I was six feet tall, two-hundred and eighty pounds of muscle, and I had grown a thick, rough beard and my hair was longer. I looked like Charlie Manson on steroids.
Very few people dared to pick me out for bullying at that point, but I was lightly teased a lot. I blew that light teasing
way out of proportion, though. I had to be escorted out of class once, because I lifted a desk and threatened to throw it at a kid. Not one of those tiny, typical classroom desks, with the little chair attached to it. A four and a half foot wide, eighty-pound desk. If I weren't in a behavioral disorder class, I'd be put in one, or expelled.
For the most part, in high school, I was ignored. Nobody wanted to be friends with me because they were afraid of me, and no girls had any interest in me because I wasn't a jock or a skinny pretty boy, and I had horrible social skills. From going through so much in my life, by high school I was far more mature than anyone else, and I had developed my own interests and tastes, and really, lived in my own world. I didn't fit in anywhere and I didn't know how to. That was far worse than bullying. I was completely, and utterly alone. The beginning of my senior year, I had a severe mental breakdown and was hospitalized. When I returned to school, something a teacher said triggered another breakdown and I left school that day and never returned. I completed my senior year on homeschooling. I received my diploma, I did not go to the senior prom, or to graduation. I went from being a straight-A student to barely graduating with D's and C's, and I've never been good at school since. I failed my first semester of college and never went back.
I haven't stopped being bullied. It changes, when you're older. It's still there, but it's not like when you were a kid. It's less obvious, but it's there, and it's just as cruel, if not worse.
Except now I just have my fiancee go beat them up for me.