» Tue Apr 21, 2015 3:37 am
I suffer from OCD, and maybe this sums up very effectively how it works for me. I just have to have all of the facts, and if that isn't enough, I read and re-read articles, paragraphs, lines, even single words multiple times to make sure I did not misread it. If I can have an opinion on something, I feel compelled to hunt down every last bit of detail to make darn sure I am not jumping to conclusions. It'd be okay if it was simple open-mindedness, but it is well in excess of that. I may know I have read an article countless times, and understand its message, but if I forget if a particular phrase was used, it's back to that website to check immediately (yes, *NOW*, not later). It may be a year past, and I know the issue was cleared up and my heart set at ease, but I'll still go back to make sure. I'll even have extensive debates with the screen, reading into things too much, and then re-reading to set that right and convince myself I'm putting words into the author's mouth. If I can remotely be worried about something...then it's nightmare time for me.
How many times can someone read the description of one of the musicals on the Really Useful Group's Stage a Musical website? There isn't a limit...and not five seconds can pass before I question what I read, and have to check again.
I've even told people my opinions in the past, because I had to know whether or not they agreed with me. I couldn't stand not knowing. When I thought of a new issue, I had to ask. I told people what was on my mind, because it set my heart at ease (which isn't too good of a thing with OCD, because that's what feeds it...doing exactly what it wants). I'm terrible at keeping secrets or lying.